my biggest mistake was always comparing myself to others. "why am I feeling like that, I'm faking that for attention." that's what the voices in my head said. i feel like I'm faking my depression for attention, cuz there r other people whose situation is worse than mine. maybe it's all in my head. why is this in my head. why couldn't this stop. i just wanna live my life like a teenager, i don't wanna lie on the floor crying till i can't no more, i just wanna be happy. maybe I'm happy, and my depression is fake and I'm actually happy. in comparison to other people, my situation is great. why am I always complaining. i don't care but I care. it's complicated, and the voices in my head get way too loud. i wanna shut em up. but how do I do this? right. with killing myself. got the point?
I'm my biggest enemy, i wanna fight but end it. i can't make decisions, but I feel like killing myself is not the right solution. but I don't see an other way so I am gonna do it. I'm tired. tired of it all.
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what is depression?
Short Storyeverything gets too much. here I explained, how I felt during that phase of my life. quick disclaimer: these are my personal experiences, not everyone feels like this! and I'm not a native english speaker, so please keep that in mind and don't judg...
