I wish I could breathe . Everyday is a struggle. Every night I'm barely making it. Every morning I'm barely waking. Everyday I'm wishing I could just stop and breathe. Just for a second. That's all I need. I'm not asking for a year, I'm not asking for five minutes. Just one second.
Give me one second to gather my thoughts. Give me one second to compose myself. Please, give me just one second. I know, I know you need my full attention. I know you need to get this off your chest. I know you need someone to listen. And believe me I'm here to listen! I'll never leave you to your own thoughts. I'll never let you stay in your own grief and doubt. In your anger or pain. Lay it all on me, please don't hurt yourself...but all I ask is that one second to breathe...
I'm not asking you to listen to my problems. I'm not asking you to stop your life and listen to me. I'm not asking you to hold your breath for me. I'm not asking you to pretend for me. I'm not asking you to ignore your problems for me. I'm not asking you to pause your life for me.
Just grant me this one request, please. Just this one request. Allow me to breath. Allow me to release everything I have been holding onto. Allow me to be me. Allow me to take my mask off and show all the cracks and dents. Allow me let go for just a second.
You could turn away if you so wish to. You could ignore me and pretend I'm not broken. Pretend that I'm still that strong pillar you need me to be. That I'm still that joyful person in your life. That I'm still someone who makes your day just a little brighter. That I'm still the one who smiles when life gets hard. That I'm still there to encourage you on your darkest days.
Just let me breathe for just a second. One second is all I need to keep my smile. To keep being your pillar. To keep being joyful. To keep being your sunshine. To still be your biggest cheerleader when you need me to be. Just one second...I won't fail you, please. I won't forget you. I won't ignore you. Please, just one second.
I'm breaking, please. I don't want you to see me like this. I don't want you to feel like a burden. I don't want you to see me at my darkest.
All I need to be okay again is one, just one, second to just Breathe.
