𝘼𝘿𝙈𝙄𝙏 . suna rintaro

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❝ 𝗔 𝗕𝗢𝗧𝗧𝗟𝗘 𝗢𝗙 𝗖𝗢𝗞𝗘 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗔 𝗖𝗜𝗚❞

[Suna's POV]

I won the competition. Ok. Not that bad for a first time, but why don't I feel successful? I won something that others wanted. I was almost famous or something. But I don't feel it. It's not good. 

I'm not the type to complain or anything, or yes I am. But I won't do it all the time. I might judge people, by just what they wear or what they look like sometimes, but that's just me. But why am I always acting like I don't have a care in the world? It's sort of horrible, lazy attitude. 

My parents always told me "There's no food for the lazy man", but that doesn't seem so far from where I am at the moment. I don't think anyone would really understand what I mean.

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I was going over to the twins' house like usual, when this boy came up to me. He was from the competition. I barely knew him, but he came up to me like we were best friends or something. I looked at him up and down; he didn't look half bad.

But just as he spoke to me, my entire head went blank for a second. Like I was about to faint or something. I think I was dizzy from the smoke that came from skaters at the competition, cause I hadn't smoked all day. 

I honestly wanted to leave. I wanted to go home. Maybe it's because I don't like one-on-one talks, but why on earth am I making a big deal about it, anyway? It's lowkey dumb...

"Oh, thanks." That's when I realized that the conversation was over. I don't think I heard him, but I heard myself say thank you. Then I turned back to my group of twins. 

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When I arrived home, I immediately ran up to my room. I didn't feel like having dinner, cuz I need to sleep right now, and I definitely don't want to feel heavy or any shit like that. I threw myself onto my bed and opened my phone. I went onto the team group chat, because I had no other friends, or something.

I took out my pack. Rolled it out and lit it.

I'd been smoking for probably 2 years now. I don't remember, but I started in highschool. It just became a habit.

And then, I wasted my entire night, on a group chat and a bottle of coke...