15 Notes [Seungjin]

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✅Revised

Good morning to all of my bubble bitches who woke up today to 31 messages by our sunshine Felix :)

"I think I am going crazy."

Chan and Hyunjin were sitting outside, in a stone table, the older had that days note in his hand and an exited gaze.

As soon as Hyunjin asked him if he had time he knew the younger was finally opening up to him about whatever was happening in that mind of his.

You've been out yesterday, I hope everything is okay.
I love the way you zone out, by the way, you look at a random dot and you kind of pout, without noticing.

M

"Why, exacly?"

Hyunjin had the notion that the older exacly why, he was just teasing him, which he didn't quite like, to be honest.

"Because I am a mess, and I hate these knew..."

"These knew... you got this, go on sweatie."

Hyunjin slaped Chan's arm as the older supressed a laugh.

"Feelings, you idiot."

The older smirked.

"And who are these feeling directed to? Seungmin?"

Chan almost burst into laughter again as Hyunjin's eyes widened, so much and so suddenly that Chan legitimate thought his eyeballs could have been launched far away.

"W-what..."

"Please, Hyunjin, you're not fooling anyone.", Chan stoped smiling and seemed to think for a while." Okay actually you fool everyone, except for me which is already enough."

Hyunjin layed his head on table, sighing.

"I don't know what this is."

"You wan to try and describe it?"

Hyunjin bit his lip and avoided Chan's eyes.

"In the beggining I just kind of started feeling nervous around him, I can't quite say when it started, but suddenly being alone with him was so nerve wrecking. I was doing okay with avoiding it but when we kissed...", He smiled softly, making Chan awe." I swear, Hyung I never felt like that, never tasted anything like his kiss."

"Sounds gay to me.", Chan shrugged, receiving a glare from the long haired.

"And to google as well."

He regreted it immediatly.

"YOU MADE TESTS? OH MY GOD YOU ARE SO GAY. Honey, basic thing in our community, if you are doing a "am I gay" quiz then you are and that's on period."

Chan grabbed his juice box and dramaticly sipped, while staring at a whining Hyunjin.

"What am I even supposed to do?"

"That's on you now. I'd tell you to go get your man but it's too early to make you that much pressure, mister I AM THE STRAIGHT ONE."

Hyunjin rolled his eyes and took the note away from him.

"But what about this girl?"

"Who even said it was a girl?", Hyunjin's mouth slightly dropped. "You just assumed so because you are straight.", Chan muffled the last word and laughed.

"I hate you."

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Hyunjin finally got of the pool, feeling his body relaxed for the first time in a while.

He had to wait until Seungmin had finally left the changing room so that he could get in, which took two hours.

Apparently the younger also had somethings to clear off his mind.

He had a shower and started getting dressed. When he was only missing his tshirt, a group of students got in, five guys that ignored him and got on their swiming shorts in less tham 5 minutes. Three of them had already left when Hyunjin slipped his tshirt on and prepared to leave.

"Look, isn't it Jackson's friend?", one of the guys let out a laugh in response.

"Yeah, the faggot, never knew Jackson knew people like him.", Hyunjin grabbed his bag with his heart on the verge and started walking towards the door.

"Do you fuck or are you fucked? Is your butt okay, faggot?"

Just a few more steps.

"Disgusting."

And he was out.

The boy started running throught the hallways, tears bluring his vision and breath sharpening against the evening's cold air.

Faggot.

Hyunjin stopped next to his locker and pressed his forehead to it, letting the tears fall.

Disgusting.