Ateez One Shots (BoyXBoy)

Make-Up (SanHwa)

"Ugh I don't know how long I can keep doing this!" I let out a deep sigh and pulled my hair. "What are you talking about Hwa?" Hongjoong looked at me. "I don't know how long I can keep being San his make-up artist. I really want to but I can't. Every time he gets close my heart is going mental. Today I couldn't even keep my hands from shaking! I almost poked his eye!" I was close to tears as Hongjoong sat next to me. "I just can't control my feelings anymore. I hid my feelings for over a year but.." My voice died at the end of the sentence.

Hongjoong wrapped his arm around me. "Yesterday you said you could do it, that being close to him was more important than your feelings." Hongjoong looked at me with a questioning expression. I closed my eyes and laid my head on his shoulder.

"He and Wooyoung are getting closer. Too close I think. And today I caught myself being annoyed because Wooyoung came in to look for us. He even hugged me before San but still I felt annoyed.... I hate myself for that! I don't know myself right now. I need time to think"

"But if you say that you'll hurt San. You know how sensitive he is. If you tell him you need some time off he'll question himself." I knew that what Hongjoong said was true, San would question himself. "I'll have to think of something. A way that I can't work, so I don't have to hurt San and take some time to think." Hongjoong pushed me off his shoulder.

"YOU COULD SPRAIN YOUR WRIST. I mean fake spraining your wrist. You won't be able to work so you can take some time off." "That's a brilliant idea! I mean it's not like San would be sad because it has nothing to do with him!"

I know running away from feelings is a bad thing but right now I can't do anything else. Hongjoong bandaged my hand and wrist. I snaped a picture of it and texted my boss.

Too: Boss Kim
Miss Kim, I'm sorry but I hurt my wrist. Doctors' orders to take some rest. He said it should take a week or two. I'll know for sure after the next checkup! I'm sorry for causing trouble!

From: Boss Kim
Seonghwa you should be more careful! Don't say sorry for being hurt! Ill inform the rest! You should heal fast!

I felt bad for lying to all of them but I needed time. I needed to get rid of these feelings.

A few hours later I decided to call it a night. I just showered and Hongjoong bandaged my hand again. Sometimes the guys would drop by without notice and we couldn't have them finding out my secret. I walked inside my room wearing nothing but my underwear. I was drying my hear with a towel when out of nowhere a voice startled me. I let out a squeal.

"Why didn't you text me? Why did I had to find out from miss Kim?" A pouting San was sitting on my bed. The towel I was holding fell to the ground as I clutched my chest. "San! You scared me!". "And you didn't tell me you are hurt!" San never raised his voice at me, but now he did.

He got off my bed and quickly walked over to me. He gently grabbed my 'injured' wrist and inspected it. "Are you okay? Don't think I'm not angry anymore just because I'm asking!" I shook my head. "I'm okay San, I really am. I didn't want to worry you. I am sorry for not texting you"

I could never tell him I didn't want to text him because I wanted to distance myself from him. So much for distancing myself.

"Hwa are you okay? I heard you scr- oh San! What are you doing here? WAIT. How did you get in? I didn't even see you come in!"

San took something out of his pocket. It were keys. "I have a key! And I sneaked past you" he smiled proudly. I melted on the spot and laughed. "Of course you do" When San turned to me his smile dropped. He pointed his finger at me "I'm still angry with you so stop laughing!"