demons

demons of the past

This is a story about me and i'm writing this and I'm 14 and how I have grown up too fast. I didn't really get the privilege to grow up like the kids around me. I had a good childhood at least for the first 3 years until it all changed until it all went boom. This will talk of really sensitive topics so beware.

The bloom's
I was born in April 29th 2006 as well as my twin sister us being the first children of my parents me being the oldest here being born  30 minutes after me, I won't lie I had a good 3 years until we moved to a different place we moved to a trailer not to far from were we use to live. Going back to that place brings back horrific memories I wish I could keep in the back of my head. But there are demons I can't fight just yet. Besides the point I didn't grow up all that rich but we had enough to have food on our table. Honestly wish i was telling a different story right now where this girl had a beautiful childhood but this isn't it.  But my dad wants to be born in this country,  my mom is from Mexico, also my dad  makes me mexican. But if we're gonna start somewhere my dad got pulled over driving home from work when i was 5 and he got arrested for not having papers less a driver license. I remember the lawyers being really expensive and they told my mom if he got pregnant there will be a chance my dad will be able to stay and so she did and then it was court day and the lawyer didn't show up. He had  scammed my mom.

Single mom
My mom is pregnant with a 3rd child and with the two of us she was a single mom with my dad in jail waiting to go to Mexico so he can try to get back to us. He was gone for  a year. My mom was working her ass off so she can take care of us and sometimes not having enough to feed all of us so for us to eat she wouldnt and keep in mind she was pregnant. My baby sister's birth date was getting closer and closer and my mom did not have anyone to take care of us. She asked the neighbor to take care of us for a night so my mom went into labor, had my sister and got discharged the next day and started working again. Then my baby sister started to get sick and sick and my mom was scared because the baby will be better  for a day and then get sick again and that really took a toll on my mom. I really appreciate all what my mom did for us. After all of those tough moments my dad is back and I was 5 when he left I was turning 6 when he came back.
 

Brain dead
I had gotten this light up pen i had opened up and I saw it had really small batteries and at the time my favorite comedy show was playing and the dad has put pieces of paper in his ear because there was to much noise and me still being a kid I had put the batteries in my ear and i took one out and the other didn't come out so i thought it will just come out in itself. A couple weeks passed and I remember waking up to a bad head pain  but as my mom told me I was screaming, crying and rolling on the floor of how much pain I was. The next day my mom took me to the doctors, they said they couldn't do anything so they had send me to a ear specialist and they explained that I had a battery in my ear and it was burning my brain because it produces this liquid and the doctor had said that if  I don't take it out I will go brain dead. They prescribed me some ear drops and all I remember was that I could taste it was really sour. The day had come when I had removed it and it was one of the most scariest thing ever so they had put my mom in one room and my sisters in another room, The doctors had but this blue velcro thing around me that keeps me still and they grab something to open up my ear and they grabbed tweezers and pulled it out so technically they had reach deep into my ear and pulled out but it hurted so much and my sister told me that you can hear my screams .

Move
TW: S*xual A*use
I was 7 and were moving houses and we had moved in with my neighbors for a week while we had moved our stuff into the house we live in today. My neighbor was a single mom and had two sons who were the same age as us and we played family a lot. One day we were playing and his son said pull down your pants and I said no so he grabbed me and pulled them down and my mom had caught us and me and my sister got in trouble and of course they did not because since when do the boys get in trouble. Then it continues when me and my sister will shower they will walk in  and open the shower curtains and we were scared and didn't  tell my mom, tell a year ago but when we finally left I felt safe and I hope no one will ever have to feel that.

Work
2017 was supposed to be the best year just left elementary school starting middle school in a month. I had just come back from Mexico and had met my grandma for the first time, we were gone for 2 weeks that felt really long but me and my sister had fun. We had been back for for a week and half and it was early in the morning and my dad was heading off to work with my uncle and my dad was backing out the driveway and had hit my dad the guy calls the police my mom calls my bestfriends dad and  his brother and my dad gets arrested even though it wasn't his fault. I had gone inside to look after the my little sister and brother so they didn't see it but I did i saw the man in blue with his golden badge arrest my dad but my sister she was outside and was telling the police to stop that it wasn't his fault and the police officer called my sister a "b*tch'' and my friend's dad was holding my sister back. I'm one at hiding their emotions and just was quite after that my mom and her friend went to the station to pay to get him to mexico quickly and I had stayed at my best friend's house and usually I would be excited but that day I didn't speak I was in shock the whole day and it was worse because how will I tell the kids.
This time it wasnt that bad because my uncle was staying with us and he could help and my dad was working in a good place. The day my dad had gotten back I felt being able to breathe in peace again.
I don't wish this onto anyone.

Grow up

I didn't get the privilege to be able to grow up like most other kids my age that I know.I was in a really dark place last year and know I'm not, which I'm glad I grew out of it . There is a lot more that happened that I'm not ready to look at yet but one day hopefully I will be able to.

By: the star