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CHAPTER ONE, TRACK ONE. "invisible machinery, these moving parts inside of me well they've been shutting down inside of me, leaving only rust behind" —— NARRATIVE
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natalia was finally settled in her dorm after two weeks. she's barely had any time to herself. with the freshman orientation, meeting her roommate, making study groups within her classes, she hasn't had time to heal from the freshly new heartbreak that recently occurred.
her heartbreak was so fresh, all it took was seeing the one video of alejandro and the pretty petit blonde girl at a party the week after natalia and alejandro broke up to pop up on her phone make her start questioning if alejandro really ever loved her.
alejandro promised her he wouldn't leave her and that they would make it work, but he left her. he broke his promise to her and it lingered on her mind, everyday since the day they broke up.
natalia sat in her bed and stared at the ceiling, her mind traveling faster than usual. she closed her eyes and sighed. sleep was the only thing keeping her sane. when she was asleep, she didn't have to deal with emotions she has to deal with when she's awake.
summer was nearly over, only a week until her courses started. she had to get her head in the game because she didn't make it to her dream college just for some heartbreak to fuck everything up for her. she didn't want to feel that low bringing in this new chapter of her life.
natalia's face was wet, and she wiped the tears from her eyes once she realized she was crying. you've got to stop crying, he doesn't care and you shouldn't either. but she couldn't help it, they were best friends before they were lovers. she lost more than her boyfriend.
natalia sat up from her bed, grabbing a towel and some clean clothes. she walked to the bathroom and sighed, looking at herself in the mirror. her face was so thin, anyone could tell that she hasn't been eating. not only did her face look thin but her hair did as well, after all it has been falling out.
natalia hugged herself, tears falling from her eyes. she shook them off and sighed. she was so touch deprived. she hasn't been properly hugged since she left home. the water ran and natalia continued to look in the mirror, the steam soon covering the mirror so the image of natalia was blurry and barely viewable.
her clothes fell from her body and she got in the shower, the water hitting her back. it was so hot, but she didn't mind. she liked the way it stung her skin. if she was going to feel any pain at all, it's better if it came from something she was doing to herself. not because of a boy who couldn't keep his promise.
