Beautiful disaster

Goodbye

Lena's POV

I've been thinking about all that Damian said and I came to the conclusion that Kara is hiding something from me. Why would Jack Mason chase after her so desperately? They must have a history.

And what I can't tolerate is collaborating with someone, becoming friends or whatever we were, with someone who isn't completely honest about themselves. I have been betrayed enough times to let it happen again.

But when I turned around to look at her, I couldn't help but feel sorry. I don't know what's going on but she looks utterly miserable. I need to know, though.

'Kara, tell me, what have you been hiding from me?'

'Why? What did Damian say?'

'First, answer my question.' I need to know she can be trusted before I share anything with her.

'Uhm, I-', her voice breaks and for once she looks weaker than a human. I want to hold her so badly but I know I can't, 'I killed Jack's mother.' I scoff, this an essential detail to the whole story. Why didn't she tell me?

'But I didn't know until I dreamed about it the other night.'

It doesn't sound very convincing if you ask me.

'Lena, believe me, I would've told you.'

I am in a split. Damian or Kara? Or perhaps Damian AND Kara? Maybe they're on the same side. The good side or the bad side? I don't know anymore.

'I believe Damian now. Are you two on the same side or am I saying goodbye to you after hearing this?'

Kara is ready to protest but then her gaze softens, saddens.

'I don't want you to say goodbye.'

I can't help but feel sad for her. She is carrying a lot of emotional weight right now and I don't know where it's coming from.

'Kara, what's wrong?'

It seems a little contradicting for sure to to break down walls at this moment but I simply can't help but care. The blonde makes me irrational sometimes.

'I don't feel like we're in a great position for me to share my heart, do you?'

There is some fire in her eyes now and it's not a good kind.

'Lena, I've done nothing wrong. I've been there for you when Damian was not and I have always told you the truth, I swear. It feels a little unfair for you to give me a cold look right now.'

She is right. Completely right. I can see in her eyes that she is being truly honest with me.

'Fuck.' I turn around and bend my head. 'You're right, Kara. Shit I'm an asshole. I just kind of assumed that you and Damian would inevitably on opposite sides so when he told me yesterday that he was trying to protect me by telling me to stay away from you, I just assumed that you had been lying to me.'

'So what does Damian have to do with all this?'

'Damian is from Umbra.'

Kara's eyes widen. 'The shadow planet of Krypton.' She whispers and I nod.

'So you probably know this already but Damian can't live without Kryptonite. That's why he kept it in our garden. He kept calling it "money" so you were right about him hiding something. Now Jack retrieved it to kill you.'

'But then Damian must know where Jack is since he can feel where the Kryptonite is.'

I didn't really think about that yet. He did look a little pale when I spoke to him, suggesting that he was separated from it.

'I'm going to search the city for any sign of him or Jack. I'll probably feel the presence of Kryptonite so it won't be difficult.'

My throat blocks the longer she talks. It's like a barbed wire closes around it.

'That's what he wants, isn't it?' I start. 'He wants you to find him so he can kill you.'

'Yes, but then Damian will live.' She suddenly looks more sure than ever and it pains me that I doubted her.

'I can't let you do that.' I walk towards her and grab her hand. She entertwines it but refuses to look me in the eyes. When she does, they are filled with tears.

'It's really okay. I have no one left to live for.' Her body begins to shake.

'What makes you say that?!' I grab her other hand too and pull her closer so that we are half hugging.

'Alan, he cheated on me.'

Her body breaks down and now I'm the one saving her from falling. She grabs onto me tightly and, because of her superpowers, it hurts a little but I don't care.

'I care about you, Kara. I want you to live for me, please.'

She pulls her head back. Her eyes are red and swollen. I wipe her wet cheeks with the sleeves of my sweater.

'I'm not sure I believe you.'

I have no control over it. My body just reacts by giving me an adrenaline boost and jerking me forwards. I first feel her nose against me and then she tilts her head so that our lips collide.

Her hands are on my stomach, which tickles a bit. Mine are stuck in her hair as our lips dance a perfect choreography. Her lips are the softest I have ever tasted.

She deepens the kiss and I hungrily respond by licking her bottom lip. Then I softly push her away since I can't breathe anymore.

We stay there panting for a little while and give each other an occasional peck. I look into her blue eyes which sparkle out of joy now.

'So, do you believe me now?' I ask her with a smirk.

'I'd need another one to know for sure.' She replies and we laugh as if there is no danger in the world at all. And so we kiss again.

'I have to go now.'

'Kara, just promise me none of you get hurt, okay?'

She nods and gets gloomy then.

'What is it?'

She hesistates but opens her mouth, 'I just realise now that this was a one time thing. You'll be back with your husband after this.'

I envision Damian's laugh and the way his curls bounce when he is excited about something. My heart aches for him, still.

'Kara, I-'

'No, it's fine, you don't have to explain.' She says, her voice breaking a little, 'I'm just going to go.'

She turns away from me and is about to fly off. But then she runs towards me in superspeed and hugs me tight. Her hugs are the absolute best. I sigh against her shoulder.

She breaks away, looks at me boldly, and captures my lips passionatly.

'Goodbye, Lena.' Then she disappears.

No, this is not goodbye. I will ensure it isn't.