Some times I truly don't understand if the love and the spark we once had is still there.I worry about maybe I'm not what he is ever looking for am I weird am I too loud too different too much of a mess maybe he's just bored of me.Theres times I don't see him for a week yet we are still going to the same school everyday.It just seems like maybe I was just too naive to notice it before I always thought oh well gee I'm sure he wants to hang out with friends or maybe he's sick or busy.But I can always tell that I miss him because I start too look for his face in the crowd.Im not sure if it's just me but what does it mean when he's texting your best friend that he's always talking to and following to class while I could walk past him in the halls but he doesn't even say hello.I want to understand but I cant.Im so scared of him leaving because he's gone and hooked up with my bfs cousin although we were in a relation ship and it was just to make her feel better but after instead of telling me he blocked off all things I could contact him with and continued to not tell me a week after until I was told in my math class about it.Are these signs or is it just me being stupid and jumping to conclusions I want to know but I can never ask hi because I can never get him alone and when we are alone I can't bring it up because all he wants to do is play games....
