My Perfect Boyfriend Or Not?

The Truth

I was still in a daze. Jesse the most popular boy in the school tells me he loves me and I have no answer to it?

I mean I wanted to get a boyfriend at this school, but on the first week. This is unbelievable. I have no clue. I still had no answer for him and I wanted to avoid him. I couldn't. I sat next to him in Maths and was quiet. However, when he had a problem I would help him. He noticed that I wasn't my usual self and asked me "What's wrong Christie? You don't seem like your usual self? Did something happen?" His stunning blue eyes were filled with worries.

I hung my head and he saw through me. I told him to meet me at lunch for the first ten minutes. The rest of the day progressed and lunch came quicker than I expected.

He remembered the meeting at lunch time and was in front of my locker. I got my lunch out and took him to the changing rooms at the back of the school where we were alone. He turns on the lights and simply locks the door behind us.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" He asked. I said to him that he is a really nice person but there was another person like him whom I met 3 years ago but he tricked me and said lovely things to me, just to get into my pants. His name was Christopher. He was in year 11 like I am but 3 years ago. He had sex with me while using a condom and I have been traumatised by that event that I am not ready enough to have a boyfriend just yet. I unfortunately became pregnant because the condom got torn and I had to have an abortion. If I get to know you better, then I can be your girl.

After that incident, I straightaway moved to an all-girls school but because the standard wasn't high enough for me to get a good job in the future at that school I had no other choice but to move to this school.

"So you see, I am not here to fall in love. I wanted to find love here but if I do fall in love, I will only end up hurting myself and not getting a good career in the future. I will only ruin my own life!"

"I see" he muttered while he was playing with my hair sending a shiver through my spine. He then looked up and his lips were drawn into a pout. Oh no. Not that look. He was not happy. He looked over at me glumly but I think I can see a little of the old warmth within him still there.

When I asked him what was wrong, he immediately seized my wrists roughly and pushed me against the wall. His face was flushed and he glared into my eyes. He said "I care about you and I love you Christie." I was mesmerised by Jesse's forceful eyes. I felt I was going to be swallowed by his gaze. Your the only girl I love and want!"

I was about to say something when his body was so close and he pushed me down slightly. Next thing I knew was that Jesse had covered my lips with his. He pressed his lips roughly against mine to silence me. He didn't let go and I struggled to breathe and tried to escape from his lips but Jesse didn't let go. I try to twist my body free but he pushes down harder on me. He grabs my wrists and pushed them against the wall so I couldn't move. There was no use. His strong body didn't move an inch. Soon I felt his warm tongue in my mouth searching for mine. I feel faint from the way his tongue is moving sweetly inside of my mouth. This hot, passionate kiss made me feel dizzy. His kiss was soft, sweet, warm but firm at the same time. He was a top kisser. I started to feel that I was drowning in his warm and tender lips. He disengaged his lips slowly and looked at me. Since I was embarrassed I turned around and could not bear to look at him.

Moments later, I found Jesse's strong arms around me and squeezing me tightly to almost the point of pain. I was thinking that I couldn't think of anything but him. I struggled to get out of his grasp but it only makes him hold me tighter. I relax in his arms and I stay there feeling helpless. He rests his chin on my shoulder while he is still squeezing me. I thought it was best if we do not start a relationship because it would only cause sadness for me. For Jesse's and my sake it would be best not to start anything. We were in silence for a few moments while I was wrapped snug in Jesse's arms. I felt like I have lost myself on his strong embrace. His hands were holding my hands and they were so warm. He soon said "I can't think of a life without you. I need you! Stay with me. I am never letting you go again. I will never let anyone else have you Christie."

I was speechless. I looked up at him and saw that his eyes were full of love. Okay so he is serious. I thought he was joking but no. So what should I do? He is fully jealous. He is cute but should I trust him. I have watched him over the past few weeks and he is a patient, caring, young, handsome and kind man. He is like my ideal man. Maybe when I start a relationship I can erase all the bad memories that my ex-boyfriend cheater did and forget about it.

I might as well try it and see how it goes. Sometimes he might be better than I thought. He is serious about me after all.

"Okay, I will be your girl on one condition. If you take the relationship slow steady I will accept to be your girlfriend."

"Yes, I am fine with that condition. I will do anything to be with my loved one. I love you so much that I will accept anything that is fair to both of us. I mean we have a long road ahead of us and we can go at our own pace. As long as we feel the same about each other everything will be fine. We can get used to it, little by little."

So we are girlfriend and boyfriend now. We should start getting used to it and since he kissed me, I now know the truth. I am in love with Jesse Wells and I want him just like he wants me. Hopefully, my studies will not be affected by relationship. I will take it easy and do my best to keep him happy, protect him and get a good career in the future. Hopefully this will all work out.