new to the pack (completed)

chapter 12

one month later. 

the big feast has been postponed because of the attack. many omega's have lost their mates. we already buried them with goodbyes. the final goodbye was letting flowers float down the river. it's been a traditional goodbye to one of our own. first was the pack alpha's family. i would be in this section now that i was mated to jungkook. the pack alpha step forward with his luna and they gently lower a lotus flower each. next jungkook and i step forward with a tears falling. jungkook held his head low. his bangs hiding his eyes. we carefully placed a lotus flower in the water. watching it float off. the council step forward and placed a different flower from us. it was a fully bloomed roses. they floated beautifully. it was the original flower telling us that they pay respect to the loved one for there lost. the lotus flowers were dropped by the ones who lost someone. next was all the ones who pay respects so more roses float down the river. next was all the omegas who lost their alphas. there were 9 omega's who stepped forward. all holding lotuses. i was shocked to see jenny. lisa's friend stepped forward. i didn't react but i was shocked. she was always after jungkook that i didn't notice she had stopped. jungkook looked at her and i notice tears in his eyes. i reached up and wiped his cheek with the pad of my thumb. he looked at me and did the same when he saw my tears. after the omega where the alpha's who lost their omega's only 2 step forward. they both been crying. bawling their eyes out. i felt for them because i blame myself for not saving them since they were killed in that circle. all because i chose to save lisa. i didn't even see the dead omega's until i was being dragged away. i hugged jungkook. he knew that i blamed myself for not saving them. he held me close as i cried into his neck. the luna rubbed my back. the two alphas dropped their lotuses and stepped back watching them float down. i looked to lisa and she was just sitting back not participating. we all bow at the river. marking the end of the ceremony. i stood up and stormed over to lisa. "do you have any respect at all to this pack." i shout to her and jenny glared at her. 

"i thought you were just trying to be cool in front of the three of us but now your just being a bitch. the girls stood beside me but you just stood back. did you even respected my mate." she said. jungkook came over and stopped my hand from slapping her. i looked at him. he shook his head. i lower my head. 

"i was never hating on you. i wanted be your friend but you were mean to me the moment. jungkook gave me attention and you hated me to that. i admit i was jealous of you because you were all over him. you were always trying to get jungkook to fall in love with you instead. i started hating you because of all rumors about the people around you. i started hating you because you hurt the ones around you." i said quietly. 

"where is this going." lisa said angrily. 

"i've lost total respect for you after today."

"jimin." the luna scolds. i just walk away and everyone watched me. 

"you let those omegas die." she said and i froze. 

"lisa." jungkook scolded. 

"you should be more grateful towards me." i said quietly. 

"what was that?" lisa smirked. 

"i know i let them die. but i recall saving you from that alpha. if i wasn't there what would have happened to you. i saved you." i said loud glaring at her. jungkook froze as he looked at me. my omega was coming out. i was getting so mad. 

"you should be more grateful to be alive." jungkook said to her. he walked over to me and wrapped his arm around me. jin and j-hope walked over being on my side. their mates behind them. 

"lets go." jin said. jenny came over. the two girls beside her. 

"stay away from us." jenny said to her. jungkook grabbed my hand. jenny hugged jungkook. i was confused as to why he hugged her back.