Overmorrow

Chapter 1 - Young and Beautiful

What the hell is wrong with me?

    Breathe 2 in and 1 out.

    I feel so exhausted, when will this end.

Come on Melody focus on your breathing.

    My breath hitched and my body began to ache. My eyes burned from crying for so long, and my head felt like it was pounding against my skull. I feel like I'm going insane, I feel like I'm dying. I can't breathe

What the fuck is wrong with me?

    I feel dizzy and light headed. I stumbled as I walked and it felt as if at any moment I could pass out. I feel sick, exhausted, worthless.

    I stepped out in the cool night air like my mom had suggested last time I got like this. The cold air blew against my face. The salty tears came to sting. It felt good to feel something. My whole body is shivering but I dont think it's because of the cold,  because I'm hot too.

    I stumble past a few plants and make my way to the grass. I decided to lay there and try to calm down. I've found it's always harder in the house with all the other noise. sure there are neighbors outside but it's better than my family staring at me and whispering about what to do or how to help.

    I was told by my mom after her extensive research to go outside and focus on my breathing to close my eyes. But it's not that easy sometimes.

    I pulled out my heavy phone from my pocket and worked on untangling the mess of cords in front of me. Once they were pulled apart I brought them up to my ears. My shaky hands pushed them into my ears and grabbed my phone that was already plugged in. I clicked on Spotify, typing it out was too hard so I just went to my favorite songs.

Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Ray

I clicked on the song and turned my phone off, I didn't need the screen on to help add to my massive headache. As soon as the music came flooding into my ears I felt more at peace. I've listened to this song so many times it just feels like it's a safe space.

I've seen the world, done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant, in Bel-Air now

    My eyes began to shut and my breaths became more steady. I honestly have no clue why I do this and have no idea what I want in the future, but who says I can't have a dream?
Hot summer nights, mid July

    I saw myself as I ran through a garden field nearing the end of the city, with him. My yellow dress flowed with the wind as I trotted to the overlook point. In my old green vans of course. I never seemed to let go of. I knew he'd always make fun of me for them but I think he has grown to love them, and me too.

When you and I were forever wild

My beautiful dirty blonde hair was wavy and grew a little above my elbow. And then there he was across from me holding my hand as if he wanted to show me the world. His soft brown curly hair was pushed back from the wind revealing his spectacular emerald eyes. He looked at me with those bright green eyes like he really was in love.

The crazy days, city lights

    The boy couldn't seem to get his eyes off me. Like I was more interesting and remarkably beautiful.

    "The lights are right there silly." I whispered under my breath hoping he wouldnt hear my sassy remark.

The way you'd play with me like a child

"I know." he paused and leaned in bringing his soft pink full lips to mine. He smiled against my lips "You're better to look at." He said in a tone that made my whole body quiver, but in a good way that I couldnt explain.

Will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?

My face turned red and I could tell how much his words impacted me. Even though I know its a dream, I like to pretend its my future. Maybe I could go out and find him someday.

Will you still love me
When I've got nothing but my aching soul?

I think so I smiled to myself, deciding to sing the rest of the lyrics before I drift off to sleep.

I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will.
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FIRST CHAPTER!!
Thank you so much for reading, I'm definitely not an author or done anything like this before so be nice.

I wrote this a couple months ago and finally decided to post it.I have no clue where this book will go but i hope this can be a safe place for all of you. In this book i'll be talking about my experiences as a teenager in today's society.

if no one told you today i love you so much and am so proud of you for being here today🤍