4freakshow

chapter 4

(this is inspired by what happened with haley like a week ago 💀)

I'm sitting crisscross on my bed with my hands on my face. my phone was blowing up with hate on my main and spam account. i started thinking crazily, "I'm gonna quit social media, go to college, and drop all of my friends." I took my phone and started deleting my videos from my spam account while listening to "Nobody By Mitski" from my "emotions" playlist on repeat.

while in the middle of deleting my videos, I got a text from hamzah.

hamzah: hey are you ok :(
hamzah: please text back
hamzah: please rory. we're worried about you.

i smiled at the text. yes, I like hamzah. but he definitely doesn't like me back. I texted him back.

me: Idk what's wrong with me
hamzah: nothing is wrong with you. what's going on? you can talk to me
me: I don't know hamzah.
hamzah: let's facetime
me: no I look horrible

then I see his name pop up

!!HAMZAH IS CALLING!!
ANSWER     DECLINE

"hello?" he says. "hey" I say.
"so what's going on? talk to me. I'm all ears" he says. I smile then explain to him. "I haven't had the courage to explain to people why I hit that guy. I'm getting tons and tons of hate on my spam and main account and I know if I delete my videos, there will be no hate. i don't know. it sounds stupid" he then says "no. it's not stupid. I know how you feel rory but sometimes you have to push throu-" i cut him off "I want to leave social media and go to college. I don't feel happy any more." "what no please" he says. "why? why can't i" I say. "because aurora, people care about you. I care about you."