Imperfect Love

EIGHT

One I posted a pic of mine jisme Maine apni mom ki red colour ki silk ki sari pahn(wear) rakhi thi. Maine wo pic aise hi post kardi thi. Main time pass ke liye phone me hi book padh rahi thi . Tabhi mere phone me notification shower hui .Arav ne meri pic pe kuch comment kiya tha. Maine jaldi se notification me click kiya taki main read kar saku unka comment.

"You look beautiful ......but there is sadness in your eyes" ye unka comment tha Maine phone band kar ke side me rakh diya . I was wondering ke unhone aisa kyu kaha , Phle kabhi kisi ne meri aankho ko notice nahi kiya tha . Mtlab mujhe bht compliments mile the phle bhi like"You have a beautiful smile, your eyes are so pretty , You have a great height types " but abhi tak kisi ne yeh nahi kaha tha jo Arav ne kaha tha.

Maine apna phone table par se uthaya aur apni wahi pic phone me se nikal kar pata nhi kitni baar zoom kar kar ke dekhi . I was smiling at that pic par usne meri smile notice nahi ki par usne meri aankho ki udasi (sadness) kaise notice kar li. Full night meri buss yahi sochne me gujari .

Maine kahi padha tha ke jab uppar wale ko lagta hai ke ab tum ik rishte ko nibhane ke kabil ban chuke ho , toh wo tumhe sahi waqt par sahi insaan se milata hai. Jo tumhare liye perfect hota hai. Toh kya main maan lu ke Arav mere liye perfect insaan tha.

Maine apne emotions ko apne tak hi rakha . Kyu ki main khud sure nahi thi ye pyaar tha yah fir sirf attraction . Kuch dino baad main ghar wapas aagyi holiday spend karne family ke sath. Pura time family ke sath spend karne ki wajah se main Arav se bht kaam baat kar pati thi. Jiski wajah se wo mujhse naraz hogya tha and usne mujhse baat karna bhi band kar diya . Maine pura ik din usko messages kiye sorry bhi bola but no reply.

Yeh bilkul sach hai ke agar kisi ki life me apni importance pata karni hai toh uski life se kuch waqt ke liye door chale jao . Aisa hi hua mere sath I was felling frustrated and sad . Mujhse nahi raha gaya and Maine unko ik message type kiya . Mera itni jaldi apni tellings share karne ka koi irada nhi tha par wo reply hi nhi kar rahe the aur mujhe samajh nhi ara tha ke main unhe kaise manau.

"Arav mujhe aapse pyar ho gya hai. I know its weird because Hume mile hue kuch hi time hua hai but still .......Logo ko shakal se pyaar hota hai Lekin mujhe aapki baato se pyaar hogya hai . ...but its okay if you don't feel the same for me mujhe buss apni fellings share karni thi aapse .. Baki aapki marji and I am sorry again please forgive me" I type and send it.

Message toh send kar diya lekin asli stress toh ab start hua tha . Main apna phone le kar room me left right ghum rahi thi. Baar baar phone ko check kar rahi thi . Mujhe laga pakka aaj humari friendship khtam hojayegi . Kya pata mera pyaar one sided ho . Kya hoga ab , buss yahi soch soch kar main preshan ho rahi thi.

"Ting" notification finally . Maine jaldi se reply open kiya " You came back , then we will talk about it" unka reply.

Ab mujhe aisa feel ho raha tha jaise kisi ne mere sir ke upper talwar latka di ho. Thank fully meri return flight agle din ki hi thi.Main puri raat nahi soo payi . Next day I woke up early and main airport ke liye nikal gayi . I was damn nervous . Ja kar Arav ko face bhi toh karna tha .

Main airport se bhar aayi and Maine auto kiya aur apne flat pe wapas aagyi . Maine door knock kiya but koi response nhi Maine apni pocket se door ki second key nikali aur door open kar ke ander chali gayi . Maine apna bag bed par rakha aur sabse phle Humii ko call kiya.

Humii: Hello.

Kasish: Kaha par hai?

Humii: Sumit ke flat pe. Tu kaha hai?

Kasish:Main toh apne flat me hu par tu waha Kya kar rahi hai?

Humii: Arey tu aagyi......Sumit ka birthday hai aajtoh main aur Arav decoration kar rahe the .Tu bhi aja help karwa de aakar.

Kasish: Hmm aari hu.

Maine call cut krdi aur main bed par let gyi bina apne shoes remove kiye. Maine dono hath apne face par rakh rakhe the . Arav ko finally face karne ka time aagya tha. Maine khudko sambhala aur bed se khadi hogyi . Room se bhar jaane se phle Maine khudko mirror me check kiya aur apne hairs sahi kiye and main apne flat se bhar aagyi .

Maine ik deep breath li and dheere se Arav ka door knock kiya . Kuch second me Humii ne door open kiya aur mujhe ik badi si smile ke sath hug kiya . "Aaja" usne mere hath se mujhe andar ki taraf kichte hue kaha.

Maine jaise hi living room me enter hui toh samne Arav kadha tha balloons ke sath jinko wo wall pe laga raha tha. Usne meri taraf dekha and he smiled . I also smiled .

"How are you?" Usne meri taraf aate hue pucha. Meri heartbeat mujhe mere ears tak sunai de rahi thi. Wo bilkul mere samne aakar khadha ho gya.

" I-I am good . What about you?" Maine bht hi low voice me pucha .

"I am good . You want water?" Usne mujhse pucha jiska jawab maine apna Sir haan me hila kar diya.

Wo kitchen me gaya and mere liye paani ka ik glass le kar aya which I accepted and drink it. Main thoda odd feel kar rahi thi but time ke sath hum tino kaam me busy hogye . Humne full flat acche se decorate kiya. Cake le kar aaye then finally Sumit and baki guests ke aane se phle Humii aur Maine apne flat pe aa kar apne clothes change kiye.

I was wearing a black shimmering body hugging gown and humii ne red coloured one piece dress wear ki thi . Ready hone ke baad hum wapas Arav ke flat me chale gaye . Arav ne humare liye door open kiya .

He was wearing black shirt and black pants and not forget ke uski shirt ke humesha ki tarah two buttons open the uppar ke. He was looking hot , damn hot . Maine notice hi nahi kiya main door pe hi khade khade usko puchle Ik minute se ghur rahi thi. Humii phle hi andar chali gayi thi gate pe sirf Arav aur main khadhe the.

"Hello" usne mere face ke aage apna hath hilate hue kaha. Maine two se three times apni aankhe jhapkai .

"Haan" maine uski taraf dekhte hue kaha.

"You look beautiful today" usne ik sweet si smile ke sath kaha.

"You are looking handsome too" maine niche group ki taraf dekhte hue kaha.

Usne mujhe andar aane ka ishara kiya and I go inside his flat . Humne last time sari preparations check ki and finally Sumit ki entery hui . Dheere dheere Arav aur sumit ke friends aane start hogye . We welcomed there guests. Sab enjoy kar rahe the par mera Sara focus un chaar ladkiyo pe tha Jo Arav ko gher ke khadi thi.

You think I was jealous....noo you are wrong because I was super jealous at that time . Arav bhi unse smile kar kar ke baat kar raha tha par wo unse baat karte time mujhe bhi dekh raha tha beech beech me . Is he trying to tease me.

Jaise taise maine apne anger ko control kiya and party ko enjoy Marne ka try kiya. Kuch hours baad party over hogyi thi aur sare guests apne apne that chale gaye the. Ab flat me sirf main, Arav, Humii aur Sumit the aur fala hua ghar jisko hum Charo ko hi saaf karna tha.