possible tw for suggestions or implications of su*ci*e!
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"I thought it was supposed to be a joke!" April laughed as she rolled her eyes, walking into the booth.
"Whatever. Are you still wanting to take that picture or have I changed your mind?"
"Yes we are, want to be 40 years old without any memories of your old friend?"
"Bu-" Blair was cut off by April dragging her into the photobooth.
"3, 2-"
"Stop! Maybe not today? I'm breaking out, and I look bloated, I'll try watch what I eat for this week and take care of my skin and mayb-"
"1!"
The bright light flashed in front of Blair's eyes, as it slowly faded, the unsettling feeling slowly settling in her chest strengthened.
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"Once again, once again Blair. Why can't you do math right? Your sister passed with 97%, did you know? You guys have the same material, why can't you do as well as her?"
There it was again. That feeling. Her heart was on fire and her abdomen went numb. Her head felt dizzy, her blood pressure was probably through the roof. She clutched her shirt, took a sharp, short breath. She tried responding, but her lips refused to move. A single tear brimmed on her lower lid, collecting on her eyelashes and making it difficult to see.
She ran to the bathroom and splashed her face with water, attempting to breathe.
Why can't she do as well as her sister?
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She opened her messages, typing out a message to one of her close friends about how she felt.
"Ahh, sad," they responded.
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"You're so lucky! Your life is so perfect, I'm so jealous... how do you manage to keep up with everything?"
"I don't know. I don't think I want to, anymore,"
"What do you mean, your life is so perfect though,"
"I've given up on existing,"
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April stood in silence, her hands enclosed over her mouth as she shook her head in disbelief.
Her mother stood across the room on the phone with a pitiful expression on her face.
"I've given up on existing,"
"I thought it was supposed to be a joke"
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So yes, this is something I randomly wrote in physics today- I find that its easy for me to put out my feelings in the form of a story, so initially this was a diary entry and i kinda made something out of it
it's unedited, but well, take it since I won't be writing until April-
bye, love you! If you need to ever talk about anything, you can always talk to me <3 i'm bad at talking to others when i need to but i'm always here for you!
edit - so im looking back at this and it lowkey has a good moral to it, if your friend, or parent, or sibling- anyone, seems off please check in on them and try to comfort them whatever way possible <3
