Cause And Effect

Chapter 1

T.W.

⚠️THIS CAHPTER HAS MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, SLEF HATE, BULLYING, ABUSE, ABANDONMENT, AND VIOLENCE⚠️

      Please be cautious as these occur through out the ENTIRE chapter and I can not put individual warnings.

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    Is this what I am now? I never wanted any of this...hell, what I want doesn't cange what I did, and with my own hands at that! Oh God, it's all my fault. I don't deserve him. And even if I did, he deserves so much better.

      Katsuki, crouched on the ground and hands gripping his hair, watched Izuku cry over his newly destroyed notebook. Even from where he sat around the corner of the entrance gate, he could see the charred cover. Blackened pieces falling off from being burned then thrown without care in to the cold water of the fountain.

      By now, he has been bullying Izuku for a good 10 years. Ever since his father left him and his mom, Mitsuki has been extra rough on him.

      He still remembers when his moms scolding slaps upside the head where light and playful, strict yet filled with concern for him and his future. Now, it was like she'd get onto him for a single speck of dust on the floor, the slaps coming down on him harder and so frequent that he has a constant sting on the back of his head. When she teases him, her words have a venom in them that make them burn as if someone injected boiling water into his bloodstream. It's a lot more painful than he'll ever let on, but he doesn't think he minds much anymore.

      The day his father left, he went out to play with his friends, including Izuku, right after his mother and father had their argument. He had been trying to stop them from arguing when his mother slaped him and he fell, only for his dad to reach out to help him as she screamed at him. He didn't take it though. Instead, he ran out of the house barring his teeth at everyone, tears threatening to fall but never succeeding, only calming down when he reached his friends.

      They were marching down a fallen tree over a small creek, when he fell. Izuku immediately came running, offering his hand to him. He was going to accept the helping hand when he flinched, his mothers words suddenly rushing thorough his head.

      "SHUT UP, YOU'RE IN THE WAY! PICK YOUR ASS UP AND GET THE HELL OUT! BEGGING IS JUST PROOVING HOW WEAK AND USELESS YOU ARE! JUST GO AWAY! LEAVE!"

      Bakugou clutched his hands closed. Izuku, "ARE YOU LOOKING DOWN ON ME?!" He screamed at him, pushing him to the side. "I DON'T NEED YOURE HELP, I'M NOT WEAK YOU STUPID DEKU!"

      The look on Izuku's face made Kastuki's heart throb. He looked shocked, his eyes wide and glossy from how his words had hurt him.

      Izuku is such a cry baby. Why is mom so nice to him and not to me? I'm her son, not stupid Deku! He's the weak one, crying just because he got yelled at! I'm stronger and better! So why does she hate me but love him?!

     "You're in the way!" She says!

      "You're weak and useless!" She says!Well how come she never told Deku to- "JUST GO AWAY!"

      Izukus quiet whisper of "Okay Kacchan" is what brought him back to reality and out of his thoughts.

      He hadn't meant to repeat his mothers words, he was just angry! He hadn't meant them!

      Katsuki stood there bellow the log as Izuku got up and ran away, the laughs of the two other boys keeping him from actually thinking about what he'd done.