"it's finally over" I said after a long day at work. As I lay in my bed, looking at this ring he gave me. Oh lord it's so pretty. This ring makes me so happy for no reason but it also brings so much memories. It's gold, like an old gold you know, this ring shows two hands, almost touching it can have a lot of different meanings but how I see it, is that we fell apart. I remember how everything fell apart. How i lost everything, even myself. I don't know what he became but I hope he's happy now. As i start to slowly fall asleep, i realize that it's now been 4 years since he's gone. I need to forget about him he's probably living his best life right now lol.
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Oh lord why did i have to wake up. I tiredly start to look for my phone with my eyes close. What time is it? 11:46 i don't really care since i will probably stay in bed all day. as i turn to the other side of the bed, i can see it's snowing. I love snow, i think it's so peaceful and relaxing. Like taking a walk in the snow and taking a deep breath is one of the things i love the most on this earth. i start to fall in deep thoughts, i have so much work to do, oh lord. I start to get out of bed without any enthusiasm. I'm so cold. I take my jacket, put on the winter boots I stole from Jae's closet and get out of my apartment to go to Jaelyn's apartment. I go to the elevator and go to the lobby. I walk to the glazed door and i feel a cold air shot. I'm cold now. As snow fall onto my hair, i run to Jae's apartment. It's a glazed apartment. I'm in love with it. I open her door and walk to her kitchen. "Coffee?" she said brushing through her dark brown hair with her fingers. "Yes" oh lord i'm so fucking exhausted. She gives me my coffee. I've been waiting for this moment.
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Flashback
Where it all started. When i fell apart.
School is finally over. Why wasn't Dev at school today? I mean i talked to him last night. As i walk back home, I stop to Dev's house since he lives kinda close. When I see a sign in front of his house. woah. this can't be real please tell me it's a dream please. i walk closer it can't be real i'm sure it's not real lol. wait..
He's leaving me. he's really leaving me. i walk over to his front door. please tell me it's just a dream. i run to Dev's room. i see him. laying on his bed with his girlfriend. he told me that even tho he's with her, it wouldn't change anything to our friendship. it did change something but he can't realize it since he's so in love. "Dev? Can i please talk to you?" i say while sobbing. "oh umm yeah sure" he said seriously. His girlfriend walks out of the room smiling in compassion for me. "what is this, your moving?" i said still sobbing. "umm yeah i guess, my mom found a new job and yeah." he said."it doesn't look like it's affecting you does it?". "I mean i don't really care lol it's not like i'll lose something anyways" he said without any emotion. What? Are you fucking kidding me? "yeah so i mean we could still talk anyways" i said. He looks at me disgusted. what did i even do? "get out now i don't want you here" he said. what? "your so fake and i hate you so much. i don't even understand how i could be friends with you. your disgusting anyways. nobody wants you in their life. and you wanna know something Jess? even your dad doesn't like you, he's forced to be with you nobody likes you, your just too dumb to see it" he said almost laughing. i'm so damn hurt right now. how could he. he knows how much i hate when people talk about my dad. tears keeps rushing down my face. they won't stop. oh lord. "fuck you Devon" i said as i was getting out of his room. his girlfriend was standing here. looking at me not understanding what's happening. i run out of the house crying my eyeballs off. i start to run to the bridge. where we met.
this day i got into a fight with my dad. my dad is alcoholic so when he drinks he gets violent sometimes. i was so scared of him so i ran out to go to this bridge i found two days ago. i liked this place. we had a view of the city and it was really colourful. i saw a boy sitting here. i went to sit beside him."hi why are you here" i asked friendly. "my sister" he said while his voice cracked. we both stayed silent. not the awkward silences. the compassion one. i looked at him. he had these brown hair aid these blue eyes. he was so pretty. "i'm sorry" i said. it was a real sorry. i meant it for once. he didn't say nothing. he just looked at me as we made an eyes contact. he smiled at me and i smiled at him. it was our moment. and later i found out that her sister died from an overdose this night and he was the one who found her laying on the ground. and that's how we became best friends.
