𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐇; 𝗆𝗂𝗒𝖺 𝖺𝗍𝗌𝗎𝗆𝗎

𝟎𝟐

«𝐉𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐘.»

"Are you really not going with us to see the practice?" Osamu and Azami were sitting together, her head resting on his shoulder.

"I would say yes, but the literature teacher gave us a group assignment and I have no choice but to meet my partner in the library. I assure you that as soon as I finish, I will look for you to take you to a date, we haven't been in one for a long time." Osamu replied to his girlfriend, giving her a kiss on the head.

Atsumu and Bokuto had urged you to go to their practice, as you had told them that you had no plans after college. It's not that you were lying to them either, because after college your routine is to go to your apartment and spend the day watching Netflix or Crunchyroll, watching any drama or anime while eating anything.

"Then I'll go with (Y/N), I love you." Azami told him, kissing him on the lips before they both parted and went their separate ways.

Azami took you by the arm, starting to walk towards the gym where both knew the boys were. Both talked about anything, the classes, her relationship with Osamu, until Azami decided to bring up the subject of the letters.

"Did you get a letter from your admirer today?" She sang the lasts words as both entered the gym. You greeted the boys from afar and went to sit in the stands.

"I did." You couldn't help but smile inside yourself as you remembered that letter you saw in the morning.

"November 15

You don't know how much I want to just tell you up front who I am, but I am afraid that you will reject me. You are so perfect, that I feel that I would not be worthy of you. Keep smiling, please. Your smile keeps me alive and wanting to live. You look so cute, I just want to stroke your hair and hold you in my arms. You know? It's weird for me to be so cheesy, but you have made me like that."

"Hey! Where's Osamu?" Atsumu approached the two of you, looking for his twin brother with his gaze, quite confused.

"He couldn't come, he had to go do a project with a partner." You answered him, giving him a smile. "Now keep practicing, before the coach scolds you." You warned him, causing him to laugh as he ran back onto the court.

An hour and a half later, the practice is over. Osamu had arrived a while ago, hugging Azami. The boys are out of the showers and talking. You were going to go to Atsumu to offer him something to eat, as both of you always used to do; however, you saw how a strange girl approached him. You stood in the middle of the field, watching everything. You noticed how the girl became more touchy with the blonde, causing you to clench your right hand into a fist. Tears threatened to come out, but you held them back. Atsumu looked flirtatious, laughing at anything that girl said. You felt the blood boil in your veins at such a scene.

"Guys, I'm going now!" He warned, taking the girl by the hand to leave the court, without first wanting to give you a hug, but you were already approaching the door, ready to leave. "(Y/N). Wait!" He yelled at you, but it was in vain. He only received a face of total disappointment from his twin brother and a blow to the back of the neck. "What the fuck was that for?"

"Sometimes I want to hang you. You are tremendous stupid." Osamu told him, denying disappointed. "Babe, if you want, let's save the date for later, I know (Y/N) will need you at a time like this." Osamu murmured to Azami, placing a soft kiss on her lips.

Now you were in your apartment, sitting on the couch watching Banana Fish while eating a pot of chocolate ice cream. Next to her was a teddy bear that Atsumu gave her on Valentine's Day. You felt like shit. Azami was in the kitchen looking for something to eat, after a while she came back with a large bowl of popcorn, and a box of wipes.

"I know we're going to cry watching this anime, so I brought this." She said, sitting next to you. "Don't you want to talk about it?" It was clear that Azami was worried about you.

You let out a heavy sigh, closing your eyes for a moment. You opened it again, to put your gaze on your best friend. "I just... I don't understand how Atsumu doesn't realize about my feelings for him. Don't you think I've been pretty obvious? Or he just doesn't see me as anything other than his best friend."

You have been enduring these feelings for the blonde for four years, and you always thought that it would be something temporary and that those feelings would disappear at any moment and you could fall in love with someone else; however, that has not been the case. The more time you spent with him, you felt your heart fill with pure joy. Seeing him smile and hearing him laugh was one of the main reasons for your happiness. Besides seeing how passionate he is with his sport, just seeing him was quite motivating.

Sometimes he acted as if he had feelings for you, which encourages you to confess; however, it all ends with "You are a good friend." from him. Thing that breaks your heart more and more. Many times you wondered if it was something about your physique or personality that could not catch him.

"I can assure you that Atsumu likes you, he just doesn't realize it. It's been many years of friendship, (Y/N). It's just a matter of patience." She advised you, and you gave her a smile.

"I really doubt it." You whispered, placing the ice cream pot on the coffee table, hugging the teddy bear. Several tears were running down your cheeks.

"You'll see, just be patient, hoe." It was the last thing Azami said before turning her attention back to the television, making you laugh a little bit.