WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE^^
It was a first day of classes. As a 1st year college student, I was excited as to how it feels to be a college student. That same say, I met a guy. He’s quite familiar to me. Yes, I know him because his siblings know my mother, but as for him, I don’t know if he knows me. His name is Alexander. Each day, I see him. I couldn’t help myself staring at him but he didn’t seem to notice me. Days passed, and then I realized that I couldn’t get him in my sight. I don’t really know what I feel for him; I just can’t help it..
I told to my best friend Czyra about this strange feeling for Alexander. She said that it must be love. But I doubted it, I barely know him, and I wanted to know him better. Another thing, he is several years older than me. He is a 4th year college student while I am just a 1st year college student. I guess, we are not suitable for each other, if ever…
Then one day, I read a quotation saying, “if you love someone, be brave enough to tell them what you feel for them or else, be brave enough to watch them be loved by someone else.” I mentioned this to Czyra, then, asked for her opinion. She said that I should rather keep my feelings to my own because I am not sure what will be Alexander’s reaction regarding this. Also, I don’t even know if he knows I exist…..
One time, I decided to open my facebook account, I type his name on the search box and luckily found his profile. I clicked on the link that leads to me to his profile. My worls seemed to fall when I saw a pretty girl on his cover photo. My heart was torn into pieces. But still, my love for him was greater than the love I felt that time.
Since then, I always prayed about him. Wishing and hoping that someday, we will turn out to be lovers, but if we cannot be, I’d rather choose to be one of his friends. That would be better. Friendship is where it all begins. As the saying goes, “Friendship is a special kind of love. More than endless, more than true….”
As of now,… I haven’t mentioned my feelings for him. I don’t know if I can.
Will be brave enough to tell him how much I love him? Or will be afraid, only to see him walk away, love and be loved by someone else?
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