why cant I help out the ones I care for and love when I know they need it even if I do get hurt I don't care cause I know ill succeed no matter what I will help even if it cost me my life is only a prison that is punishment no matter what I do I end up hurting the one that I was trying to protect because I got hurt or even kill but at least ill know the person that I risked my life for is safe. why must I always hurt them why do I always have to risk my life is it cause I know in the end ill die some where better with people but how long do you think the people that you are with will be there for you. will they be there till the very end which is death or leave you by yourself for death I don't know but everyday I look at death and spit in his face and rejoice that I lived another day why tho so I can do it again tomorrow but why must I continue on like this would I some day be lifted from this curse that I was given when I was 7 being possessed by 2 different spirits and them having control and helping me after a few years it was crazy I ws sent to concealers that would try to help but ended up sending me away from the results that the had gotten. why must I be punished like this in this world is this even the true world that I have been in. when I turned to a reasonable age I was able to control them and switch control to them and take control back but what I didn't know was that there was a price even tho I knew cause there is always a price with things like this I decided to use my every last ounce of will power strength that I had to help out those in need no matter what I don't judge anyone or thing and will help those I don't even know and the reason on why is cause I have to live the life that I have in this prison of a life that I have and will always have to till I die but that wont be anytime soon cause I still carry the spirits within me till this day
