As he opened the door , he found her sat on the bed, waiting for him, the guests had left, they had danced and laughed for hours and now was the moment they both had been craving all day.
She heard the door open but did not turn back, she knew it was him ..
She had been thinking of all the things she lost, of all the people she loved..and then when she heard the door , she came out of this dream, to this beautiful reality, to the moment she thought she would never live to feel..
He looked at her back, she was still in the white beautiful dress, looking like the goddess of love, of beauty, he never felt more in love than he did in this very moment.
"She is my wife" he said to himseld .For a moment, it felt like a dream to him too.
Was he in Adana ? Was she the woman who only married him to end the dispute between their families ? Who did not want to be in his bed even though she had married him ? The woman who told him to go and spend the nights with another woman and said she didn't care ? He was hesitant to go near her ... what if it was not real ?!
Or was this the woman who gave up her youth to protect his life, who had to marry an enemy, be in his bed, live in his house just so he could breathe ??
The thought alone scared him, he hastily went to her and kissed her head, closed his eyes and smelled her hair. He was in a trance and he wanted it to break, he had always wanted to see her in a bridal dress as his wife and this was his moment, he did not want to "dream" it anymore, he wanted to live it.
"Are you okay?" She asked as she lifted her head and looked at him , he could only smile. He proceeded to sit beside her to face her, held her hands and looked in her eyes .. she was real, she was there , she was his wife.
He brought her hands closer to his face and kissed them as he continued to look in her eyes. "have you seen anything as beautiful as you gulum?" She laughed , "i haven't" .."let me show you then "...he helped her get up and took her to the mirror..
while she faced it , he stood behind her wrapping his arms around her waist with his hands resting on her hands , he whispered " Here, what you see here is the most beautiful thing in the world, what you see is the bride who is loved the most by her husband,
A bride who is desired more than life itself, a bride who makes my heart complete, i have seen you many times Gulum,
I have seen you even in your absence...
But when i see you now, i see the most beautiful bride , a bride i could die for"..
" Ramo.." she said " And What you see is the woman who could die for YOU Ramo, a woman who has lost everything but gained everything in you..
A woman who no man ever touched but you because my heart never loved anyone but you"..
"Gulum.." he said as if he wanted to stop her, suddenly his face changed and he looked sad, as if he had lost something & couldn't find it.
"What happened Ramo? Did i say something wrong ? Are you upset with your new bride already?" She joked..he didn't say anything and just smiled at her but she could see his eyes, he was teary, he wanted to say something.. but he didn't..
She knew what he was thinking,their love was strong to over come anything but she knew how possessive he was and since they never talked about it , she knew it hurt him. And tonight of all the nights she wanted to explain. Not because he wanted an explanation but because she wanted to tell him "Ramo..."
"hmm Gulum?"
She held his hands as she slowly walked towards the bed and sat beside him, he kept looking at her with love, she was always very expressive, he knew she was going to say something... he knew her very well. How would he not? She was not a part of his soul or heart, she was the soul !
"ramo, i know you took me as your wife without asking this, i know this is not important but i wanted to tell you this not to make you feel better but because how strong our love is. Taner..."
"Shush Sibel.." he interrupted and put his hand on her lips to stop her, she took the chance and kissed him gently..
"Let me Ramo.. please let me , i feel this burden please let me say it today.. he never touched me Ramo, this is what i wanted to tell you, my love for you grows every time i think how you never cared.. but i never slept in his bed Ramo, he has never touched me because i didn't allow it..i did not allow him as much as to smell your gul, how could I Ramo? Your gul has always been yours "
While her eyes started to shed tears, she could not continue her words, he held her arms gently and moved her closer to him, kissed her eyes and then her cheek to stop that tear falling on her dress and said "didn't i tell you that your tears hurt me? Its enough that i am the only one you loved, the only one you accepted to share a life with..its enough for me to live..don't cry my life, not today, not tomorrow, not ever..."
Tbc...
