missing [m.c]

chapter fifteen

michael gordon clifford,

when i discovered that you were missing, my first reaction was to cry. cry and cry and cry and pray that you would come back. i missed you everyday. i started writing you letters, even though i knew you would never read them.

eventually i decided that you wanted me to come find you, like quentin had to do for margo in paper towns. so i went on a road trip. i searched everywhere for your body, but i couldn't find it anywhere.

michael, when i was told that they had found your body, my first reaction was to scream. they found your body, in your neighbors basement. the only place i didnt look. i asked to go see your body myself, because i didnt believe it.

michael, they found your body. and thats the only thing in the world that could break my heart. so im following you.

i dont know if you committed suicide or if you wrote a letter like i am now, but im going to do it. i have the pills in my hand right now as i write this.

see you soon,

tamzen xoxo