I’ve been dreaming of someone
To be my only one
To be the love of my life
And to be his lovely wife
Dreaming and so I did,
Him kissing my head
Smelling and caressing my hair
It stunned me right then and there.
Holding me so close to him
To the point that I’m overwhelmed,
Holding me so tight
as if I want to fight.
But fighting never on my mind
Instead, I want all these in rewind.
“My love” and so I said
I told him what’s on my head.
He smiled and looked at my eyes
which were sparkling and crystallized.
Then he kissed my two eyes delicately
as I closed them slowly.
My closed eyes before I could open,
He said a promise I hope weren’t meant to be broken.
I came back to reality
And thought I shouldn’t have slept dreamily
I felt tears run down my cheeks
But tears are just for weaks
I made it through the past
Don’t dare try to ask
Because moving on is very hard to do
And thank God that His true
With Him I took some of the pieces
When my love left me in the bushes
Do you want to ask if I learned to hate?
Of course I did I can rate
My hate for him was so big
That I tried to stop my heartbeat
It’s been a very long time ago
I made it through my woe and so I think so
All my memories of happiness
All my memories of sadness
“Why?” I asked myself
“Why are you killing yourself?”
“Why can’t you stop crying?”
“Why can’t you stop weeping?”
Then I felt that familiar presence
I never turned to face my weakness
I can feel his so near
His familiar steps I can hear
Then finally he talked
“Did you my love really wept?”
Huh! So numb
Not to know what “I” feel – me the dumb
But how she missed him
How she longed to break that wall between them
No worries for that thought
Breaking the wall he ought
Oh! Heaven
Heaven is what I’m feeling
As I once again felt his touch
His I thought caressing touch
He motioned me to face him
that made me do something in a whim
As I looked into that loving eyes once again
I cried and wept and let him see the pain
Is that pity that she saw?
No it’s not pity that she want it’s to owe
Damn! This gorgeous man
Damn me for loving this gorgeous man
But, what is it that I just saw?
Is that the expression of guiltiness in his eyes?
The expression of longing and love
The expression of wanting something to have
And does “to have” means me?
Does it really means me?
Oh how I wish!
How I wish it’s me
“Stop this hypocrisy right now.”
“Did you forget about your vow?”
“Your promise that now you have eaten?”
Thanks to you my head I’m awakened.
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THIS IS THE VERY FIRST ENGLISH POEM THAT I'VE WRITTEN. FOR YOUR INFORMATION, DEAR READERS I'VE NOT YET EXPERIENCE SUCH AS THIS THING... FOR MY SAKE I'M JUST 17... I JUST GOT THE INSPIRATION FROM THE NOVEL THAT I'VE READ THAT REALLY BROUGHT TEARS IN MY EYES...
BUT ACTUALLY, I'M ALSO HOPELESSLY DREAMING OF THAT SOMEONE.. I WANT TO MEET HIM ONE DAY WHEN I'M ALREADY STABLE WITH MY LIFE- FINISH STUDYING AND HAVE A VERY GOOD JOB...
COMMENT IF YOU WANT. MAY IT BE POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE. BUT I DO REALLY HOPE ALL ARE POSITIVES.. JUST HOPING, AGAIN.. TOO MUCH "HOPES"... HEHE...:)
