The World's Getting Blurrier //Billie Eilish GxG

Chapter 1-Absolutely Not

"No. I'm not doing it. You can say 'Billie Billie it's about your life' alllll you fucking want but I am NOT doing it."

My eyes widen and I feel the jolt of anger in me rage as my hands frame my face in anger and frustration.

"Billie, I'm not saying that you have to, I'm just asking you to consider that it might not be the worst thing for people to find out in such a beautiful way".

My mom is a master of being annoyingly calm when I'm losing my shit, and it somehow makes everything a million times worse. Maggie looked into my eyes and sighed as I stood my ground and shook my head in exasperation.

"I just can't believe this is even a debate. Yeah, fine, whatever, tell the world about me and Q I don't fucking care. But do not, do NOT tell me that I have to tell everyone about what happened after. It's my life, it's my fucking 'story' he's using, and without my ass and three years of me dealing with a camera on me every moment of my life he wouldn't have a film in the first place!" I throw my hands in the air dramatically and let my eyes settle on something behind Maggie, my anger quickly fading and being replaced by emotion. I bit my lip and let out a heavy breath.

" Billie, it's fine. This is why RJ gave us the first cut, so you have these options. It's always your choice".

My eyes darted to the left, my head following and curving around in a jerky motion. "fuck". I muttered, tears welling up. "I want to give the fans everything but I don't want to fuck up what I have with her dude". I suddenly became aware of how my shirt was damp from my wet hair after showering as my mom pulled me close and started running her hand through my hair.

"it's okay baby, we'll call RJ in the morning and tell him to leave it open ended at the end".

-

"Hey -aby, what are you doin?" I held the phone to my ear with one hand, the other throwing some blohsh hackie sack a fan gave me up in the air at my ceiling.

"Nothing important, my sisters are just finishing up lunch and we were gonna go drive around. Why did something happen with the doc?"

"Yeah, they tried to put you in it, teh-" I scoffed, throwing the ball at my cloth covered wall and rolling over to my stomach.

"Yikes- Hawaii and all?"

"Hawaii and fucking all dude. They tried to put that video of us in the pool that I cut off before I kissed you in there in full. I just don't know how to deal with this shit, can you come here?"

I looked at my nails. They were short again, the long nails can really only be for big events now, plus with the rona destroying my life it's not like it matters anyways.

"Yeah B, I'll be over in like 10 minutes just let me get my shoes on".

-

I peeped my head out the door, a flash of green alerting the neighborhood (and any god forsaken paparazzi) that THE Billie Eilish was out and about for the day. Drew's gross ass Honda had just pulled into the driveway and I gave her a soft look as she approached the door.

"Hi" I said coyly, disappearing behind the door to let her in before smacking it shut and squeezing into her tightly, planting a light kiss on her neck.

Drew responded with a short laugh and a hiss of breath out her nose at my touch, causing me to smile against the skin of her nape.

"I told them no. My mom and I called this morning and all the shit with Q can stay but I want to leave you out of it." I sank further into her embrace, curling my hand in hers and looking up at her. She's always been around my height, but I have a habit of leaning down into her. Some shit about comforting touch. "Are you mad that I don't want us to be public?"

My hand moved nervously back and forth and I looked into her soft brown eyes.

"Bil, we've talked about this a million times, of course I'm not mad. I couldn't want the public eye less, I just want you and your dumbass".

I felt a butterfly hit my chest and I smiled softly. "Fuckin idiot" I mumbled before parting from her, grasping her hand to drag her to my room. "Bitch I really gotta move out". I joke, huffing out a low laugh as I heard my mom in kitchen, and walking past my dad.

"Oh good morning Drew" Patrick says casually before returning to pouring over some boring ass book on ships or some shit. Who knows what he's ever up to.

"Sharky shark guess who's here!! mhm- its your faaaavorite" I call out sing songy, hitting the door shut with my foot and allowing Shark to run to attack Drew.

Drew laughs and scruffs Sharks face and I smile. Life is pretty fucking good these days despite it all.

"Hey hey Mr Shark face, leave some for me" I say in my characteristic cartoonesque joking voice as he starts licking at her face.

"Gross Billie-" Drew starts before I use one single motion to nudge Shark to the floor and push Drew onto the bed, my arm outstretched over her.

"Sexy lady" I say as she reaches her arms up and pulls me into a kiss, my body melting into hers. This is exactly the shit I needed to feel like I was making the right choice. I can't risk this shit, she's much too good. Plus, the real ones know well enough anyways. I shake my head a bit to clear out my distractions and pull her into my chest, squeezing her as tight as possible. "I wuv youuuu" I say in a coo, before laughing deeply at Shark panting loudly across the room.

"I love you too you moron".

"I protect us for forever" I proclaim, making a goofy sideways face and taking our intertwined hands and lifting them skyward.

"I protect you too B". She leans in and kisses my cheek, then my neck, then my breast over my shirt and I sigh in contentment.

"No but like BITCH, I really gotta move out, when are we touring that place by Finneas?" I ask, my own schedule a complete god damn mystery to me.

"That is definitely a question for your mom, not me" Drew laughs, running a hand through my hair. "

As if on cue, Maggie knocks on the door, causing Shark to bark as if someone was attempting to breach a security zone. "Billie, Drew, I made pudding if you want some".

"FuuuuuUUCk ok be out in a minute mom" I call out, hopping up to calm Shark's dumbass down.

I turn to look at Drew, a playful look in my eye. "We fuck later while my mom is doing Support N Feed shit?"

(aight sick that's it for chapter 1, this is just my thoughts on the real dirt going on behind the scenes but I am probably like 1000x wrong. I just be knowing a bitch is real fruity lately and I like to think this is whats going on. Anyways, let me know if you want more)