"Cool Kids"

Chapter 5 "Love Me, Tender"

                                                                     *Kenzie's P.O.V.*

The triplets are now five months old and they're more of a handful now than they were when they were born. Shane has learned to pull my hair out while I feed him, Nate is growing his first tooth and Jason screams every time we put him down. It's been hard, but thankfully I had Nat with me to help out when I need it most. 

As soon as we put the boys down for their naps, Nat and I were able to have a little bit of "us" time. Usually "us" time consisted of watching a movie, or at least a small chunk of one, or napping together until we get awoken by the babies, or we just sit together and sometimes talk about stuff. Today however, was a little bit of everything.., Or so I thought.

Nat and I were in our bedroom lying in bed together, cuddling. I had my arm around his waist and used his chest as a pillow. He had his arms around me and held me close to him, stroking my hair.

"What do you wanna do?" I asked.

Nat shrugged. "Well the babies are sleeping," He said. "Maybe we could have a little fun."

"You want to fuck me," I said. "Don't you?"

Nat gave me a smirk. "How'd you guess?"

I chuckle a little and shrugged. "I saw it in a movie once..,"

Nat laughs a little bit. "Was that a yes or a no?"

I glanced over at him and kissed Nat softly. Within seconds, I had gotten into his lap and we were making the fuck out. We hadn't done anything like this since before the babies were born and it felt so good! It took me back to when Nat and I were starting to try again after losing our daughter, Kassie.

*Fifteen months prior.*

I had many doubts if I'd ever get pregnant again. Nat and I have been struggling for so long. Miscarriage after miscarriage, day by day. It just never seemed to work out and neither one of us knew why.  I had three miscarriages and two false positive pregnancy tests. My cycle was always irregular and when it came I felt nothing but disappointment and as if death was upon me because of the cramping and other shit.

It was Nat and I's anniversary. We had gone out to dinner, walked around Central Park and went home to figure out the rest. Nat took off his jacket and unbuttoned his shirt while I took off my shoes and met him in our bedroom. My husband had sat on the edge of our bed, gazing out the window. Two days after our wedding would be the anniversary of our daughter's death, which we both dreaded. 

I went over to Nat and wrapped my arms around him, giving him a kiss on the cheek. As I kissed his cheek, I could tell he was crying. I then rubbed his back and he dug his face into my chest. "I-I miss her so much..," He told me.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. "I-I do too babe," 

"It's been five years," Nat said. "It doesn't seem real, does it?"

I shook my head and sat in his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. "You think that maybe,-" I paused for a minute as he gazed into my eyes. "Perhaps, we could try again?"

Nat nodded. "I feel like I'm ready to try," He told me. "We've tried so many times since losing her. We've lost many pregnancies, Kenz. Do you think you can handle it all?"

"Honey," I spoke. "I'm ready. I know I can handle anything and everything life has to throw at me..,"

Nat sniffled a little bit and smiles at me. God, his smile made me so soft and yet so horny all at once. I love that man more than anything, and I made sure he knew I did!