There Is A Punishment For Your Crime

An: Nikki is Japanese for diary and as Miku is a product of Japan, I thought it appropriate she might sprinkle Japanese words here and there in her diary entries.

Rating will change if requested.

There's a Punishment for Your Crime 

by Spotteleaf9(Fanfiction.net)

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Hatsune Miku wrote everything in her journal, pouring her heart out to stain the pages black with her darkened life. It is only because of this journal that we can understand what happened to make her kill herself. 

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Monday 

It happened again, nikki. Kaito failed to notice me. I'm so in love with him, nikki. I love Kaito so much it hurts. I've always been there in the background of his life, too shy to approach him. Each time I would work up the nerve to approach him, another girl would get there first and ask him out. Nikki, today I got there first. Kaito's latest girlfriend turned out to be a total psycho and he had to break things off with her. 

I walked up to him shyly, my long hair covering my face like it always does. Hiding behind my protective shield of blue-green locks, I found the courage to speak to him. "K-Kaito sempai....I have to ask you something." Then I forced myself to look up at him and...he was looking right into my eyes. I froze, feeling pinned by his steely gaze. His look said it all; he was tired of girls approaching him with intentions like mine. I quickly bowed and ran off. "Sumimasen!"

Tuesday 

Nikki, mother was drunk again tonight. Letting myself in from school, she lunged up from the couch, her red dress covered with the dark, wet stains of spilled alcohol. Swearing, she yelled at me. "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!" When I tried to stutter and answer, she only raised her voice and roared over my feeble attempts to speak. "YOU UNGRATEFUL LITTLE BITCH! I SPEND MY LIFE RAISING YOU AND THEN YOU DISAPPEAR WHEN I NEED YOU!" 

I was finally able to get a word in. "Mother, what is it you need?" I kept my eyes downcast to the floor, as if I was inferior. It made her angry whenever I created a moment of eye contact with her. I'd had a beating over that mistake before; many a time. 

Mother lowered her voice and my heart dropped with her pitch. I'd been living this way long enough to know that when mother got quiet I was in danger of receiving a beating. "You will address me as Meiko, you welp. You haven't earned the right to be my daughter, you little disgrace." I shivered in fear, anticipating her fists and began to long for school.

Wednesday 

Nikki, I know I don't usually bring you school with me, but today I did. Today was one of the worst days of my life and so I'm glad to have you with me. Today, Kaito was talking to his friends at lunch. For once, I actually wasn't looking his direction, but the raucous laughter of his friends caught my attention. "SHE WHAT?" Milk sprayed out of Len's nose. "That's hilarious!" 

I perked up, at the same time feeling an oh-so-familiar sense of dread. I was being talked about and I knew it because I was no stranger to negative words. My heart fluttered painfully, as if it were a poisoned butterfly trapped in my chest. Kaito began to talk, his voice calm and composed as it always was. I had no time to remember how much it was one of the most soothing things in the world to me before my brain registered his words and what they meant. "She was going to ask me out. I could tell. She's always following me around, after all." A bite of winter greens disappeared into his mouth and I envied that salad. I just wanted to be swallowed in a dark hole from which no one could ever pull me.