Love Skating | Park Sunghoon (Book #1 Of The Idol Series) ✔

Chapter 23 - Aftermath

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　KIM SEANA　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

I looked out the plane's window and sighed. I stopped crying, maybe because I didn't have any tears left in me.

The plane was empty aside from me and the staff. My eyes were still stinging from all the crying that I did.

I feel angry, humiliated, but most of all the pain inside of me was more overwhelming than anything I have ever felt.

"Ma'am, please eat your meal. Mr. Park instructed us to give you whatever you need during this flight, so please don't hesitate to ask." The flight attendant placed a tray on the table in front of me.

I scoffed at what she said. Sunghoon prepare for everything here, huh? He wanted me to go.

How could he do it as if it were too simple? How could he have given up that easily? After I showed how precious he was to me. I had decided to give up everything for him. I couldn't eat because I was afraid I'd throw up if I did. So I simply reached for the water that had been put alongside the meal. My throat was parched from all the screaming and shouting I'd done earlier.

When my hand reached out, something on my wrist sparkled.

"I'll keep on wearing this every day to show you that I love you for every single day of my life."

I almost laughed at how fast the moods changed. How many emotions I felt throughout that day. I don't even know what to feel anymore. I feel empty.

I harshly removed the diamond bracelet Sunghoon gave me. I shoved it down the bag that was beside me. Another thought came to my mind.

He even packed my things for me. Did he want me to go that bad?

My eyes started watering again and I didn't even notice until the flight attendant went towards me with a pack of tissues in her hands.

I laughed, "Sorry about that."

She shook her head as a sign that it was no big deal. "He truly loves you, ma'am. I hope you are aware of that."

I looked down on my lap before answering the girl. "It doesn't matter, he believes we're not good for each other anymore." I looked up at her before continuing, "I guess love isn't everything or maybe it just isn't strong enough, huh?"

My eyes became heavy after a while. Because of how drained I was, I felt like I had run a marathon. I'm exhausted, not just in spite of my crying, but also emotionally. I went to sleep, thinking that everything that had happened was only a really vivid nightmare from which I could awaken.

I opened my eyes after feeling the gentle taps of the flight attendant. I thanked her and the other staff on the plane and proceeded to go to the arrival area. 

When I saw Jisoo, I didn't waste much time in running over to hug her. My tears began to fall down my cheeks once more. I had the sensation that the knives in my chest had been bent and buried even deeper.

"He gave up on me, Ji." I kept sobbing. Her shoulder wet with my tears but I couldn't stop. If I don't cry all my frustrations out, I might burst.

She hugged me even tighter with every sob that I let out. Her caring hand roamed up and down my back to try and ease my pain but it doesn't seem to work. Nothing seemed to work. "He did it for you." She said which made me cry even more.

My love for him was so toxic that it made him give our relationship up. Am I that self-destructing?

"I didn't want him to," I said as loudly as I can but it sounded as if it was only a whisper. Tears that I thought had already dried out of my system seem to once again be non-stop.