But Down // KuroKen

Tell me

--Time Skip--

Kenma's POV

I woke up that morning in Kuroo's bed. It was around 2 in the morning, and he was awake, sitting there, looking down. "Kuroo, you ok?" I asked, confused. "Why is it that everything hurts you? Why can't you just be normal and stop the depressing shit? I know your different but goddamn it Kenma. It hurts everyone around you to see you suffer. Especially when you question why we care." Anger washed over me. I stayed silent but Kuroo continued. "I just wanna be able to come back here one day and see a smiling Kenma, who isn't trying to kill himself, and wants to stay. A Kenma who is clear of scars." Kuroos words hit me hard. "A Kenma who gives a fucking shit about the people who love him. So you know what? fine. Do it." I got up, tears in my eyes. "If it hurt you that damn bad, you should've stopped fucking caring." I say, not yelling, but still meaning it. I ran out of the room. I was still in my clothes from yesterday, I put my shoes on and went out the door which was some how unlocked. "Kenma wai-" was all I heard before the door slammed shut. I ran down the hall and out the building. I eventually made my way through the street and to the roof of the building, where I liked to be. I caught my breath when I got there, walking to the edge. I sat there, my legs dangling as I, once again, gazed over the glowing city. It wasn't far from 3 in the morning. Tears escaped my eyes. Why would he ever say that? I had no idea where that came from. My phone buzzed. 

Text Messages: 

2:47- Kuroo: Kenma where are you?

2:47- Kuroo: Answer me please!!

2:48- Kuroo: Come on I didn't mean what I said just let me talk to you!!

I turned my location off. He had no chance of finding me unless he would think. I'm guessing he noticed I turned it off because he continued to spam me. The wind had dried my tears. Now my I was just sitting, again, so close to being able to grasp death. I thought about it. I remember the last time Kuroo caught me up here. I told him I wanted to see the world when I stop breathing. I did, and this is the only way to do so. I figured, since I had my chance, I would text him. 

2:50- Kuroo: Kenma turn ur location I can't loose you

2:50- Kenma: If you need me

2:51- Kenma: Wanna see me

2:51- Kenma: Better hurry

2:51- Kenma: Cause I'm leaving soon.

2:52- Kenma: I want to see the world when I stop breathing

I stopped texting him after that. He continued to spam and call. I figured that would give him a hint. I knew what I was doing and I was so close. As I was about to stand and turn, I heard the door open. It was mere silence, as the door shut. "Tell me love is endless" I say, not looking back. "Ken-" I stopped him. "Don't be so pretentious." I paused. He took a step, but stopped. "Don't say I'm all that matters. I'm not ok, I feel so scattered." I stopped to let him speak. "Kenma I'm sorry-" He began. "Sorry can't save me now." I went on. "Sorry I don't know how." I repeated sentence after sentence, each one flashing a different memory through my head. "Sorry there's no way out" I paused, the silence filling the air. "But down." I stopped what I was saying. The last two words seem to hit Kuroo, because he was left speechless. We stayed in silence. I didn't want Kuroo to watch me fall. He'd stop it. "Call the team. Tell them it's been great and I'll miss them. But I'm not sorry." He seemed to be hurt. I stood and turned around. "Kenma no, stop" I looked at him. "Sorry theres no way out" I began to say again, but he interupted. "There are other ways out." He said, trying not to sob. "There are too many people here who love you, who need you. I love you and I need you here. I don't want to live without you. I can't live without you" He stopped. He seemed as if he was giving up. My hair blew around in the wind. We sat in silence for what felt like ages. I turned back around, still standing. I closed my eyes and inhaled. The thick air once again, satisfying. The coolness of it on my nose and cheeks, as the wind blew through my hair. I loved this feeling. I imagined falling down again. I could still feel Kuroo's eyes on me, and I knew he wouldn't leave. 

I turned and faced him again. "Call the team and tell them I'll miss them." I say, watching my pace. "I'm sorry" I whispered as I fell back. 

{Ima stop the story there for now. Ill post the last chapter when I feel like it- and I'll post it depending on wheather or not this story is popular. The chances of kenma suriving, kuroo saving him are all equally possible so just keep that thought in mind. word count: 885}