YOU ARE STILL THE ONE! [Vkook/KookV]

18.Absquatulate

v;to leave without saying goodbye.

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What's coming is better than what's gone.
Why? Cant it be worse?

Jungkook was never the kind of person to accept changes around him. He kept confined in his walls,not wanting people to know him. They might see through him and take advantage.Call him paranoid.He just can't trust people.

He is the kind of person to go through every thing in his life on his own without asking for any help,or sharing it with anyone. Now can you blame a child whose parents work full time,give oh so little time to their child.

The child who loved his nanny more than he loved his parents. Who shared the pain with that one person,who,without judging calmed him,accepted him for who he was,and guided what to do next.

Now what happens if after loving a person,the only person,so dearly descends to heaven,leaving him all alone?

Whom should he share his problems and feelings with? Who is there to guide him? Who is there to calm him and tell him everything will be alright,it always does? That it's just a phase and would pass eventually.

So when after his only dearest person to him left him,he did what any other child would do.

He separated himself from the world. He confined himself in a hole,he felt safe in. Not caring what others do or think about him or anyone else for a matter of fact.

He remembers some fond-only fond-memories from his childhood with his dearest nanny.

He remembers the first time he met her.
He was five. She was fifty.

His mind goes back to the blurr memories of how his parents decieded to hire a nanny for him.

He was a small child,needed attention,someone to play with,someone who loved him all the time.

His mom and dad,being the busiest because business was on rise,considering the fact they set up the company after Jungkook turned one. Apparently a gift for him,according to his father's wish he would take hold of after completing his studies,he came to loathe the gift.

Not being able to give him enough time and attention,they did what they could,hired a nanny.

He remembers how he was hiding behind his mother when the old lady first came to his house. She was smiling ear to ear. Not wanting more than Jungkook to come near her so that she could hug him. He was cute back then.

He knew from the moment when the old lady took out cookies from a green round box,that she would be a safe person to play with.

Now you see,he loved cookies,and what can a five year old do when he is offered his favourite cookies,in front of his parents,because he knew never to accept things from the stranger.

He slowly started walking towards her,gaze fixed upon that one thing in her hand that made him selfishly walk towards her. He stopped for a moment before taking the cookie,and when he did,it became his favourite-of all the flavors he had ever tried-and also the person who made it with her own hands.

He remembers her mild strawberry scent,and her warm hugs. But feels like he would forget them as time passes.

"You can feel the love of the person in the food they make,kook,they always pour more love than sugar.So when you make something for the person you love,with all your heart,they would always feel the love."

Those words were still clear to him as if spoken yesterday. Nanny once told him this,when he asked how did she make the cookies and how come he doesn't like any other cookie that his mom buys from the store.

He never knew her name,always called her nanny. She never told her name,always loved the way Jungkook called her.

She always called him kook,and he loved to hear that from her. After she was gone,he never allowed anyone to call him 'kook'. He believed he couldn't save her,least save one of the things she loved,calling her kook.

He recalls the time when he scored a 100 on his math test-the subject he loathed and now came to love-he was dreading for the test so much he couldn't study without crying,thinking he would fail.

Nanny came to her,and the words she said are still engraved in his heart,after which he calmed down and studied with all his heart.

"Never let something scare you kook,you are the strongest among all,the brightest among all. This is just a test,there are bigger challenges waiting for you. If you get scared by just a few questions how can you be the brave kook I know. You are just ten,you have your life ahead of you. Dont let small things let you down. You are more strong than you know,more brave than you realise."

She taught her the chapter that he was to be tested for in the next week. Did I mention she was a great teacher?

Somehow her words always found a way to comfort him. Even if it was just a few words. He remembers all the life lessons she gave him. All of them-by heart.

He was the happiest when he saw a 100 on his test. He ran to nanny as soon as he got inside the house,jumped on her happily. Showed her what he achieved,first to her and then his parents.

Showed her how he was her brave kook. And she never hid that he made her proud.
That was all that mattered to him. Her being proud of him,nothing more,nothing less.

There have been times he would recall what she taught him.
There would be times he would cry at night,in the dark,and wake up the next day pretending nothing happened.

He could do that. Why?

Because when there is a whole storm of emotions inside him,for years,how cant he hide his mere tears,which he sheds only at night,in the dark,alone. For no one to see.

He could cry in front of nanny for hours and would not think for a single moment what would she think. Because he knew,she would always comfort him,she always did.

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He might be the Jeon Jungkook,namely the bully of the school. But thats not what he was or wanted to be.

He wanted to be the child everyone loved and adored.The child who has a happy childhood and lots of friends to surround himself with. The one whose parents loved him dearly,him being their only son.

So maybe,when he saw Taehyung,surrounded by so many people,even though him being a new student,his heart clutched with pain.

How he once longed to be that child. Or maybe now too?

He doesn't express his emotions by speaking,he does it by writing or drawing,one more thing that his nanny taught him.

He kept his diaries safe in the memory box of his nanny,which he knew,she would guide it,keep his secrets from the world,because he knew she always did,she always does.

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Was it an emotional chapter?
Haha i tried though.
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