almost (icarly) Ongoing

Letter To Freddie

I slowly walk to my car.
It's only now that I realize Sam's gone.
It doesn't feel right. It's kind of a void.

Then I drive back to Seattle
First I knock on Spencer's appartement.
He opens the door and I give him the envelopes. Then I go into my own appartement. I went directly to my bedroom and I locked the door.

I wasn't sure if I was able to read the letter right now but something told me I needed to open it right now and read it.

Dear Freddie (yeah you see it right, no nicknames this time ;))

I don't like to admit but you are really kind, funny and yeah.. You are an amazing friend.
It was a fun time doing icarly together thank you, thank you for being There.
Not only for me but also for Carly. Please promise me you will be there for her whenever she need you.

You know. I always liked you,
Even after our brake up
I wanted to get back together so bad.
But they say; before you can love someone else you need to learn how to love yourself.

Sad enough I wasn't able to do that.
I wasn't enough.
I'm sorry.. But I can't do something else.
I tried to find my escape and I think I did now.

Freddie, please take care of carly, Spencer and cat but mostly take care of yourself.

I love you

Freddie started tearing up.
It was just so sad that Sam struggled with all this so much.
She needed our support so much.
And then on the point when we were able to save her we weren't there.
She was almost alive.
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