My Story Of My Life- anonymous

.little me.

Hey okay so I don't really remember my past but let me put in some things I remember:) hope you enjoy the music to;) this is not really a adventure but I couldn't find anything so act like it is a adventure

When I was small like the age of wearing diapers (haha I feel embarrassed now but anyways lets continue on) I would go outside (yes the age of walking) and play probably with the dogs my dad work somewhere idk where at tho my mom worked at the hospital while my sister was in elementary school. My sister was young there now she's 15 years old about to turn 16 my mom idk her or my dads age but I would love to play outside this was probably around 2010 or 2011 I was born in 2009. (young age you ask me, June 17th is my birthday) I was a happy little kid my sister stayed in the same room in bunk beds (if that's how you spell it) one time this is so embarrassing to say but um I heard hissing noises and stuff did I get off the bed? No I did not cause I was a little bit scared so I screamed not like in a loud voice but in a scared scream "DAD!" no response "DAD!! DAD!!" I screamed more louder "what" I heard "THERE'S A SNAKE IN THE ROOM!" my dad called my mum she picked up my sister from school when they came back my dad gave my sis a farmer thingy and told her to kill it (bruhhh how in the world can she kill it!) time passes she kill the snake with a fcking farmer thingy (I don't know what it was called) it was a rat snake. (I'm getting bored with my young self soo let's speed it up) years came I was nine or eight years old when umm I sticked the bad finger and my dad caught me so you know how it goes with a father and a spanking. I learned my lesson but continued but when the grown ups where gone~ my sister and I decided to watch anime (naruto) we didn't finish it. (I feel bad for not finishing it tho) but yeah years go by and I turned 11 years old! that's when I felt heavy and stuff so I stop loving myself around the age ten and let the devil or the evil man control my life I didn't like it but I also did. Now I feel empty like he just left me there in a dark place. it felt SO nice but of course I felt scared like if I was with someone or someone was watching me so I went back to reality and had to suffer from it. I also faked being happy but sometimes I feel happy, I fake laugh sometimes or laugh like I really laugh.  I always told the good man to take me away for one day to see if they cared about me or like I would imagine myself committing. (if you know what I mean) till one day my mom told me and my sister to pray that my grandpa (my moms dad) will make it, days go by or it was the next day and my mom came in my room which I woke up to the noise of the door and she said "grandpa passed away" I nearly felt it because I just woke up but then I didn't believe he passed away so I didn't but I had to because I never came home from the place. I gave up myself and felt more pain because he took away the best man in everyones life including me I would cry at night stuffing my face in the pillow so I won't wake the family up and would always say "why did you cut his flower and not mine! I always told you to cut my flower!!" "Why!!" I would scream in my pillow till today I feel numb from the past. Look at what the past did to me now I listen to everything everyone says about me like a student from school wished he wasn't or I wasn't in his/my class because of the way I probably looked like. I didn't like me either plus he thinks I don't play games IS IT BECAUSE I'M A GIRL OR IS IT YOUR FIRST TIME HEARING A GIRL SAY SHE PLAY GAMES! Gosh man I hate boys like him this is why some boys say " man why don't I have a gamer girlfriend" like brooo WTF!! (Also I have little or a lot of anger issues) but anyways that's my story! wait I also listen to ghostemane (srry if I didn't spell it right) and $uicideboy$. I love anime characters... love u - anonymous