Breathe in, Breathe out...

Dear Ex-Best Friend...

Inhale, exhale. Here goes nothing...

"To my ex-best friend I thought I'd know you till the end, sorry I know things aren't going as we planned... to my once ride or die the one who always knew me right. We would swear it'd always end up you and I. We really messed up this time." -Tate McRae's "To my ex-best friend"

You bullied me, tortured me, and spread rumors about me, you were dramatic, shy but talkative, emotional but you ripped all of my emotions out of my chest/my heart and threw it away like it was the easiest thing in the world. We were "Best Friends" for almost 5 whole yrs... you betrayed me and caused me to hate myself. You caused me to be distant, mean, dirty minded, rude, stupid, anorexic, suicidal, and to be an Insomniac. I love you, I love you. My sister you will always be.<3

"Can't say that I hate you cause I never could, trying to replace you cause I know I should. I'm better without you but I wish you would... show me your sorry, say it with your eyes, tell me not to worry, help me realize that I deserve better and I'll be alright. Use the sleeves of your sweater... to wipe my tears dry." -Cole's "Your Sweater"

We fought a lot because of your dramatic ass. You took everything way to seriously. I have attachment issues, you knew that. So the final fight happened, you said you had enough of MY, "Bullshit!!". I begged you and begged you with tears falling down my face to stay. You didn't listen. I love you, I love you. My sister you will always be.<3

I comforted you when you cried. When your parents were favoring your brother over you like they did everyday I took you my house where you laughed, joked, and had fun. I still remember your smile when my dad made a joke. You were loved beyond all recognition, but you still left me. I remember everything about you. From your quirky personality to the things you tried your best to hide. I love you, I love you. My sister you will always be.<3

We met in second grade. You were hiding behind your dad because of you being shy on your first day at a new school. Our teacher sat you down and asked me to help you with the math work. While we talked I asked you the question that started the toxic friendship that became ours, "Do you want to sit with me at lunch?". I love you, I love you. My sister you will always be.<3

I thought I hated you for the longest time until I realized we were BOTH at fault. But then I just started blaming myself. Those Rumors stuck around school, the bullying never stopped even after you left. Our friendship is broken... nothing can be done. I love you, I love you. My sister you will always be.<3

I'm sorry, to my ex-best friend for everything I did or didn't do. You made me who I am today so I do not complain for if I had not met you; my life would be in vain. I still care for you, even though I'm not supposed to. Those 5 yrs were some of the best yrs of my life. Thank you, my ex-best friend for a time I shall never forget. I love you, I love you. My sister you will always be.<3

Though I have not fully healed time will move on and so will I. Eventually... Oh, dear one I loved like a sister... I Am Not Nothing. I love you, I love you. My sister you will always be.<3

 Lilly~

We were BOTH at fault so no hate please... (': Happy Reading!! :')