growing pains

chapter 1. summer before freshman year

 ⚠️TW: SEXUAL ASSAULT, DRUGS, ALCOHOL ⚠️

   I remember when the highest I could be was swinging on the swings not how much weed could make me forget last night. I remember when protection was wearing my bike helmet not forcing a guy to wearing a fucking condom. And most of all I remember the happiness I had as a child not me as a 16 year old just trying to make it til tomorrow but I guess here we all are.
   If you really wanna know how we got here I guess I should start at the beginning, the summer before freshman year, a bunch of awkward 14 year olds trying to be cool. Yea, didn't really end up as planned. If I remember correctly it was June 14th, one of the guys, Tyler, stole a couple of beers from his house, we left at 6pm and got fucked up and liked it. We came back at 4am. That night started everything, Tyler's alcoholism, my addiction to drugs and Nicole's abusive relationship. If I'm going to be completely honest what happened that night should be a secret but if you want to know everything in full detail I have to say what went down. We went to this sophomores party with beers in hand we weren't sure what to expect but what happened that night was certainly not what we expected. Nicole went off with some guy way to old for her, Tyler went off drinking with these jocks and I stayed back and chilled with this small group of 2 girls and 3 guys (Corrine, Lizzie, Luke, Jacob and Josh). When I first met them I didn't realize how high they all were but I was soon to realize when they started offering me drugs, I don't think they realized that I was fresh out of middle school and was way too young to be doing any of that but then again there I was saying "ummm, yea sure why not, 1 hit couldn't hurt". Yea right, 1 hit. I'm surprised any of us even got home that night with Tyler drunk, me high and Nicole I'm not even sure. If you thought that night was bad we'll you're in for a surprise because imagine that same night happening over and over every Friday night that summer. By the end of the summer none of us were ever sober, Im surprised we passed freshman year but we aren't there yet....