Journey Of Sidnaaz

Nightmare

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Shehnaaz:

My bigboss journey till now had been great except regretting the fact of me being with Paras.He wanted both me and Mahira but when I refused and told to chose between me and Mahira ,he started using this jealous tag on me.I cannot anymore be in that group and so left it but now I feel happy leaving that group .I joined Sidharth's group.It was really fun being with Asim and Sidharth.About Asim ,he is a sweet and handsome guy.We both often do masti together.Talking about Sidharth ,he is also a sweet man but he always give the right decision and guides me a lot.

Sidharth was the person I needed in this house who would guide me,support me and also does fun with me.He is a mature man but deep down this muscular man lies a child .The best thing about him is that whenever he is with me ,he behaves with me the way I am like he hears my illogical talks whether it's about the game or not.I have heard from the housemates that he is a very mature and a logical person but the way he is with me is completely different. We have made a really great bond and I am glad that he saved me.He is always for me whenever I needed him.I am not sure but I think I am developing a different feeling for him more than friendship. I tried telling my heart that it's not possible, he will never reciprocate it and maybe for me also this is not good to have feelings other than friendship.

Four weeks passed away .I didn't had expected that I will stay in bb house till the first finale though being nominated twice.It's really a great feeling being here,I guess people are loving me and I hope that it's true .Though still being the sadness of fifi's departure. I wanted him to also stay here.He was a jolly company ,I had really made a great bond with him also.I miss him .Salman Sir had been  great .He is so sweet and just treated me like a child.Whether he agrees or not but I think that he gives his most attention to me on Wkw.

Now I am sitting here on the sofa in the living room.After having Wkw conversations with us,Salman Sir left .Today more contestants will come more precisely wild cards.I am just hoping that they would also be sweet like some of the contestants. Shefali Zehariwala was the first wild card.She was a famous celebrity and seemed to be a sweet person but I am getting bad vibes from her.Better to stay away from her I guess.I look towards Sidharth who was dressed in black shirt and jeans.He had a frown on his face.Maybe he knows her.I thought to talk about it later,not stressing my mind more I went upto her and did a little introduction.Sidharth and I sat together on the sofa talking about the other wild cards.We heard more noises from garden area and soon other two contestants also came.We moved towards them .Khesari was really a sweet and jolly person.I was glad hearing Tehseen Ponnawalla .He told that I was really cute and  was his favourite contestant. We talked for some more time and then he went to talk to other contestants.

Sidharth went with Asim to talk to the other wild cards.Arti and I sat on the sofa in the living room.I am feeling a very bad vibe now .I don't know why but it seems like something bad is gonna happen. Arti asks me about my work in Punjab.She had asked it earlier also but I had ignored as I didn't wanted to remember those bad memories. But today I felt like to tell her.She was also one of my closest friends in this house so I finally gave up the ignorance on this topic.Tears automatically came into my eyes when I started talking about that.

Sana:punjab industry mein mujhe koyi pasand nahi karta

Arti:kyu

Sana:wo meri controversy huyi thi ek ladki ne mujhe bohot bura bhala bola tha,usne mere character par bhi bohot bola tha

The thought of himanshi horrified me more.I never wanted to meet her again after whatever she did.Every single thing was snatched from me due to that controversy whether it was my fame,my fans love and my projects .The depressed phase of my life which I went through just because of the loss.

Arti:kon thi wo

Sana:main naam nahi batana chahti

Arti hugged me comforting me .I wiped my tears and composed myself .Arti left from there to bring some water for me.All the memories of the controversy started splashing infront of my eyes like a nightmare.My eyes were closed still tears coming out from my eyes.It felt like I was physically present here but my mind went back to those years of the controversy. I didn't wanted any more trouble for now.The love which I had got till now ,I didn't wanted to be snatched away again.I was busy in my thoughts when I felt a hand on my shoulder.I opened my eyes and saw Sidharth looking at me.

Sid:oyee tujhe kya hua?ro kyu rahi hai?

Sana:kuch nahi bas kuch purani buri yaadein yaad aa gayi

Sid:isliye tu ro rahi hai

Sana:hmm

Sid:gadhi aaj tujhe khush hona chahiye ki tu safe ho gayi na ki iss tarah buri baaton ko yaad karna chahiye...aur wese bhi tujhe toh doh aur bande mil gaye,Arhaan aur Tehseen,aab tujhe attention bhar bhar ke milegi(chuckled)

Sana:Sidharth kyu ese bol raha hai  mujhe acha nahi lagta aur wese bhi mujhe sirf teri attention chahiye

Sid:wo toh milegi par-

He was interrupted as we heard the doorbell indicating the next wild card.Sidharth was called by Asim so he didn't came outside. I moved towards the garden area .The bad feeling inside me only to be increasing.
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