Alone For A New Start (1#)

Alone

When I'm all alone with lucas , I told him 
" your parents won't let me stay here "
" they will , I promise , I  will try to convince them " 
" no , dont , it's okay buddy , we can still be best friend " 
" okay then if you insist , but can you please give me your address ? I will give you some of my food and toys for you to play with when I visit you " 
" thank you Lucas " I gave him my address ,hugged him and waved him goodbye  with a sad smile .

I barely eat any proper food , that woman was such a witch. She gave me poisonous food , but I have no choice but to eat them to fill my growling stomach.
Lucas visited me once a month and always reminded me and comforted me when I told him that I missed my mum. He told me that everything will get better soon . But it wasn't getting any better. He told me that he can't visit me everyday bcs his mum would find out about his visit. 

I brushed my hair , and my comb was filled with my hair. I stared at the mirror and I barely recognized the face that was staring back at me ,  my eyes looked tired and I looked like a dead person. My skin was really pale , my lips were chapped.My dad and her soon to be wife were killing me slowly , I don't even want to mention their thoughts of me.
" trash " 
" useless kid " 
" why did she even give him those food, let him die " 
" look at him , pathetic , how is he still survive " 
I prayed everyday , wishing that things will get better because I am starting to lose hope , started to think that God isn't real , and begged Him to help me to get out of this mess .