FIRST LOVE

THE BREAK

Two difficult days passed because from the day William saw me and Oliver together, we had no news from him. The last time i had talked to him was the day he told me about his new girlfriend Emma. I spent all days with Oliver but it was the first time that we didn't had fun. The only thing we thought about was William. I was sure that he learned about me and his brother but i didn't know how. Oliver took me for an evening picnic. I sat for a second without talking to him and i just thought that right now a person, not just a person but my favourite person might be sad because of me and that made me feel weak and a terrible girl. But then i heard Oliver's tender voice telling me: 
\-It's too cold for you here, lets go home. 
And then i felt his hands around my waist.I got up and then i fell into his arms crying and saying that i was losing him (William) and that i was nothing without my best friend. 
I woke up to my mum telling me that William came to our house and that he needed to talk to me about something. I thought that i was dreaming for a second. When i understood that i wasn't dreaming i jumped out of bed and ran to the living room where he was waiting for me. I saw him sitting on our couch, i stopped running and i looked at him for a minute. He got up and came towards me. My phone started ringing with the name "Oliver" on it and i quickly hung up. He looked at me straight in the eyes and said: 
\-Hi…I know about you and my brother and i am sorry that i didn't answer to your calls but i feel like he is going to replace me and i was so confused when i found out so i needed time alone; and i need some more so i think we should take a break.
*   I am really sorry, can we talk please? (i said) 
    He shook his head negatively, took his jacket and left. 
    At that minute i wasn't thinking about anything.A big void in my mind.I took my phone and i called Oliver; He picked up and i told him everything while i was trembling.There was nothing we could do except from giving him some time to think.Day by day we waited for him to find us but no trace of him. We were almost 16. Oliver was the only one there for me when the night was full of terror and my eyes were filled with tears. Many people thought that i was excessive but no one actually knew how close i was with William.Every night was more difficult for me and Oliver always tried to cheer me up; he even took me to a small trip to a big lake so we can have some time together and talk. He was the sweetest like his brother. The feeling of me being in his arms sitting in the grass watching the moon reflecting brightly on the lake water and counting the stars until the sun came up,made me really happy. But unfortunately something was missing from me. The person that always made me laugh until my stomach hurt. Ugh, i was so confused! 
    Two weeks passed and i wanted to cry all day but all my tears had been used up. I was sitting in my bed looking through my window all evening until Oliver came in my room with a weird look in his face. He didn't say anything and just sat next to me in my bed. He looked at me and tears started to run from his beautiful eyes. I don't know why but from the minute i saw his face i understood that he would break up with me. I knew it but i didn't want to believe it.
*   I can see it in your eyes; Did you came here to end this? (i asked) 
    With a look of pain he answered: 
    \-My little girl… 
    And he touched my face wiping my tears while looking straight into my eyes.
*   No don't do this to me, you know that i am going through a hard time right now please you are the reason that i am still holding on. (i said with more tears in my eyes)
*   I am sorry but i have to (he said to me)
*   But why are you doing that if you don't want to? ( i said to him while my mind went to William). 
    That was it. William told him that the only thing we could do for him to start talking to me again was this. 
    \-What i hope is impossible; We can't be together. A best friend is more important than a boyfriend. Its going to be rough but we can do this. I love you! 
    Those were his last words to me. He got up ready to leave but i couldn't do this… I touched his hand and said: 
    \-I will wait for you no matter what, please don't give up. 
    I saw the tears from his eyes falling on my hand and i broke down crying.That was it, he left. I didn't even think about the fact that i would talk with William after that. 
    I didn't sleep all night; In the morning i had a text from William saying:"Im waiting for you at my house. We need to talk" 
    No thoughts in my head. I got up and felt so weak. 10 minutes later i knocked the door at his house; he opened up and he looked at me like nothing had happened. I was kind of upset. He started talking about everything that happened but the only thing i was thinking about was Oliver, until i heard William saying:
*   I can see it…! 
    I was confused so i didn't say anything.
*   Oh my god (he said)
*   You love him 
    I rolled my eyes trying to keep my tears. He got up and left the room.Quiet prevailed until i started crying and he came back in to tell me to leave, but he saw me and asked why i cared so much about him. I got up and walked towards him:
*   William…Are you seriously asking me why i care about you? We are friends since first grade, we have done everything together and you know things about me that no one else does. I cried when you left at first but probably i had the wrong impression about our relationship…or you did actually. (i said, took my bag and left).

<< the next part will be published in 4 days>>.