Selling Our Sanity

Lover Boyz

"Insanity?" Jackson says

"If you look in a dictionary, There will be an illustration of us under the word insanity?" I say with a smirk.

"Lets get outta here." He says looking panicked.

Before they could move, I got up from my side of the booth and walked over to the other side and grabbed jackson by his collar. He instantly stood up. I grabbed his hand while Izzy did the same to Jason. We walked to the car. Me and Jackson in the front and the other two in the back.

"Where we going?" The boys say in unison. Im suprised they just now asked questions.

"We call it, selling our sanity." Izzy says.

"See, me and my best friend live out lives and dont care about anyone but the ones we love. Whoever interferes, we show them the way we live. If they dont approve of it and walk away, we let em. If they decide to stay, they are people worth fighting for. So, We are gonna take you hotties on a test run."

"Well." Jason says.

"Damn." jackson says with a smirk.

"Now, listen here lover boys, we dont live by their rules, we live by ours. We dont care about avoiding trouble. We make trouble. We do stupid and dangerous things. We are probably considered whores around here but we are not whores. One of us is still a virgin. The other just had no choice. So, if the one who had no choice could still be a virgin, she would. Unfortunately, she cant. No questions asked about that. We dont live in the past, we dont live in the future. Its now or never."

"HOT!" the boys say in unison.

I try my best to smile. But it failed knowing I just gave them a little bit of information of my past. I try my best to let the memories rest in the darkness of my mind. But all thw bad memories Ive ever had remain right by the ones I regret and dont want to remember. They always spread through my mind like a cool summer breeze. I just choose to ignore them a lot. Sometimes, its just to hard.

"Scar? You okay? You seem... Off?"

"Dont ask." replies izzy. I knew she knows what im thinking of. She helped me through everything. She knows the next move I make everyday.

"Im fine..." I Say politely.

Those two words, everytime I say them, they destroy me once again. Those two words are the words ive always regret. Those two words holds my biggest secret. Those two words are the biggest lie i have ever told. Those two words, my pain withholds in.

I snapped myself out my thoughts and stood up straight and puffed out my chest. My guards are up.

"Its going to be okay." I thought it would have been izzy. Once i felt the hand on my shoulder, i knew it was one of the boys. I looked to the side to find jacksons eyes filled with determination. I dont know what for. I look to the back to find Jasons eyes filled with concern and as is izzys.

I knew then, these boys were worth it.

"Im right here, gorgeous. Ill always be. I know what it is to fight. Especially fight pain." jackson says.

"Im sorry, I cant believe youll stay."

"Why is that?" jason says.

"Because ive learnt the hard way." I say through gritted teeth, more memoriea coming from the back of my mind.

Before they continued our little moment... I parked in the parking lot of the park. (Haha, see what i did there...)

"Why are we at the park?" Jason ask.

"This, is phase one, buttercup." izzy says with a smirk.

"Of what?" jackson ask.

"Your test." i say with a mischevious smirk. Im going a little hard on these boys because I know it would make them more tense.

"So, drive dead?" i say.

"Gotchya."

Without another word. We walked into the road by the park. The cars flying. Without a second thought, we walked straight into our own death trap...