Thoughts. Emotion. Pain.

Mess.

Journal entry (thoughts and feelings):

Do you ever have a dream and you know that something bad is going to happen but you can't do anything about it? So when that bad thing happens you try escaping, and the more you struggle the worse it gets. And you know the only way out is death. My life is exactly like that... But it's no dream because there's no waking up.

Sometimes death is the only answer.. And some people, like me, feel like that all the time. Most people believe that death isn't the answer and it never is but what they don't know when they try to convince suicidal people is that we don't see any other option. We've fough hard battles undescribable. We've gone through shit that other people can't even begin to understand. When we try to describe it to ourselves, how we feel, one minute we take a step back and react to what is in front of us, people stare at us, people judge us and don't comprehend what kind of mess we are and what mess we are going through. PEOPLE THINK WE ARE OVERREACTING AND SURE WE MAY BE AT A MOMENT BUT THAT IS BECAUSE WE CAN'T.. We. Can't. See a solution. There is no way out besides death and we have already faught so hard for what we deserve most. But we are the only people who can't see it as an option.