Stray Kids Oneshots

In His Arms - Hyunjin (M)

It's only been a few months since Hyunjin asked you to be his girlfriend. Needless to say, things between you have been a bit slow. Not that there was anything wrong with that, you loved getting to spend time with Hyunjin. Any time you get to spend together is greatly appreciated, but at this point you want more.

To put things into perspective, you are a virgin. And you know for sure that Hyunjin is not, making it difficult for either of you to bring up in conversation. He cares for you deeply, wanting to make sure that your first time is 'perfect' or something.

It's not like you haven't tried to bring it up before. When make out sessions got a little too heated, Hyunjin would back away, wanting to take a break and ruining any shot you had to go further.

But by this point you are too exhausted from trying to suggest the desired deed, exhausting all options and being dodged each time. You aren't sure if he's doing it on purpose, or if he's just really bad at getting the hint.

Taking it upon yourself, you decide to conduct some research of your own. If anything, you don't want to embarrass yourself during your first time. You know that Hyunjin is experienced, and no, that's not something that you've ever held against him. You're just a later bloomer than he is, and there's nothing wrong with that. What matters is that you're ready now, you're in love with him and you're ready to take your relationship to the next level.

"So I've been thinking," you begin, hands placed gently on your lap as your eyes meet his.

"Thinking about?" He questions, raising a brow in your direction as you nervously chew your lip.

"I think," your shoulders tense, taking a deep breath and closing your eyes to get some composure, "I think that we should have sex."

The statement is blunt, catching Hyunjin completely off guard that he nearly chokes on the air he breathes. Not giving him much of a chance to calm down from his coughing fit you speak up again, not able to bear the awkward tension.

"I've been doing some research and-"

"You've what?" His voice stammers out as he suppresses another cough from leaving his throat, his cheeks puffed out in an attempt to hold it back, "Research on what?"

Noticing the palms of your hands are quickly becoming clammy, you drag them across the fabric of your jeans, doing your best to coax yourself into relaxing instead of dwelling on how unbelievably awkward this conversation is.

"I've just been looking up some stuff online about how to like... I don't know."

Hands quickly covering your eyes, you sink into yourself. Maybe this isn't something that you should have brought up. The internet has some mixed reviews, some saying to let it happen naturally while others say to make a plan. You've always been more of the spontaneous type, but alas, here you are, making a plan.

Hyunjin doesn't interrupt you, but simply waits for you to finish what you have to say. It's painful. Having him just sit there with his brows furrowed while your face heats up with nerves.

"I just wanted to make sure I knew what I was doing when we...I mean if we...you know."

It's beyond impossible to make eye contact with him now, especially when he knows exactly what you mean now. There isn't anything else that you have to say. But thank god he doesnt let an awkward silence take over, quickly jumping to take your hands in his before speaking up.

"Y/N," his soft voice instantly brings you comfort, his thumb stroking over your hand to ease your anxiety, "there's nothing you have to be worried about, I love you. You know that?"