We were living in fear of abandonment, in a tragic hopelessness. But mostly in darkness. Us, teenagers, we never expressed our true feelings, passions, virtues in the light of shame. We were scared of laughing in classrooms, getting a bad grade, and we had truly bad habits. Never thinking of what we are made of, always looking at what we should be.
Holding our breaths when we supposedly should be breathing the world in.
We never let it out, cause nobody listened. We always agreed with someone else opinion, because a lot of us were just so fucking scared to have our own.
See, I know you. I know hat every each one of us is tired, but can't sleep, full of promises, but unable to keep them, full of sadness, but pretending it's anger.
We're all the same. We are the devils servants. We are always fighting alone, and too shy to ask for help. When we do - we never get it. If we don't - everybody suddenly is so eager to help. Bullshit.
We are pretty much restless, always searching for another way to spend the night.
Not being able to decide for yourself is the worst feeling ever. I wish I could. There is so many emotions you can't express, so you just stay in the same dark place anxious as fuck.
Basically your feelings are all over the place, but you are expected to stay put. Like animals in a cage, we go from side to side in the same schedule. Most of us are extremely socially awkward or have social anxiety. We live in a toxic society and we think we are not strong enough to escape it. But we shouldn't escape. We should fight it.
For what though? In the end it all goes back to hell.
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The Devils Servant
FantezieFirst part of the Devil's trilogy. "When everything literally goes to hell, there is no stopping it. The whole world is shredding into pieces and the only thing we can do at the moment, is watch it."
