뼈대 | stray kids

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A/N - before we start hi hello annyeong:D um anyway imma be using other lyrics from keshi's music because 1. stan talent and 2. skeleton is quite short and repetitive so these are all lyrics from his song 'atlas' (stream btw) also oopiesss haha when i said this is gonna be really inconsistent i apparently meant it cause i last updated 19 days ago. *round of applause to me well done* and one last thinggg i really really really appreciate all the reads this book is getting, i really didnt expect it and this is kinda shitty which is why i didnt want to update but think im improving (fingers crossed yall like this chapter because i lovee ittt) but if anyone want to ya know maybe vote or comment or sum it would mean the world :)))

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/// (Hyunjins POV)

𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵
𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘐 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱? 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘢 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘰

3 weeks had gone by. things had gotten better between us. but nothing had changed, just gone back to normal which saddened me, but its for the best.

 the next day, when you walked up to me at our usual spot, you looked different. you werent smiling, you werent wearing bright happy clothes, you looked like me. which was obviously not a great thing. i was worried about you when i shouldnt have been. you said you were fine though. i didnt believe you but i trusted you. i trusted that that statement was true.

the next thing i did was stupid. i was stupid. i shouldve never done this jeongin and im so sorry. none of this would be happening if i had thought twice about it. i just didnt think you would say yes to me but, looking back you looked like you wouldve said yes to anything really.

"you wanna smoke?"

you nodded rather quickly, almost as if you had been anticipating that question from me ever since you arrived that night. i pulled another out of my pocket and rolled it up, handing it to you slightly hesitantly.

𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘸𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩, 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘢 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬

after a bit, you spoke up. the next words made my heart stop and i swear i couldve felt my soul leave my body.

"it doesnt taste like normal tobacco."

i checked my pockets once again trying to figure out what you were saying. weed. i had given you weed jeongin. i was scared. i wasnt sure what youre reaction wouldve been to me carrying around illegal drugs.

i nodded. "because its not."

𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘴𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐'𝘮 𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘳

i was about to ask how you knew it was different than regular tobacco, but that was the least of my worries once your head suddenly fell against my left shoulder. not in a romantic cute way however, it landed lifelessly and i panicked trying to wake you up but you had indeed passed out. i knew id fucked up then.

i wasnt sure how the hell i was going to get you home but then i realised i had no clue where you even lived. the noisy cars seemed to quieten down in that moment and the cold wind stopped. the world froze and for a bit i just enjoyed you. it sounds stupid. because it was. but i hadnt had this with you, you were quiet, everything was quiet i felt comforted and happy. no, not happy, content. 

𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘐'𝘮 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯' 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘐 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘥

i took a brief second to take in the nature and surroundings as i sat there, from the red colour of the bricks that make up the skate shop i hang about to the way to leaves still move on the bushes, perfect and in sync. it was dark and the sky was clear. it looked almost empty from how black it was. the moon shined though bright and beautiful.

 i also admired jeongins face, all his gorgeous features like his pale soft skin, giving him a young appearance. he was too perfect. way too far out of my league. no one was made for me but if anyone was it definitely wasnt going to be jeogin, he deserve way more than what i could provide for him. but i wanted him. 

𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞𝙢 𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 

╰┈➤𝐥𝐚 𝐝𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐱𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐬𝐞

(𝐧.) 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭-𝐰𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞

✎𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑖𝑚 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 - 𝘬𝘦𝘺 , 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘦

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