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the downs - taehyung 🔹

Enjoiiii. Ps: I'm not gonna add the genre part anymore.

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Member: taehyung / kim taehyung

Your pov-

Usually when you're lovely and gorgeous boyfriend comes home he'd greet you with his smile and instantly launch himself to the couch in your arms, but today, today went a little different.

He was.. acting unusually weird. The tall man, weird in general, but not the usual weird you witnessed. He didn't throw his usual smile at you as he came in through the front door, instead after he saw you, he gave a tired smile and left for the shared bedroom to take a shower.

You weren't about to ask him what happened, you figured he must've been tired from the all the recording he did. You let him take his much needed shower. As you went to go sleep and end it for the day you saw taehyung fast asleep on your shared bed.

Even if he was feeling like shit the other days he would've called for a cuddle session. Ofcourse you had to do some coaxing to get him to open up to you, but he wasn't a hard nut to crack. You'd ask him tomorrow anyways, now you just needed him to atleast let you make him feel a little better.

So you scooched into the bed and gently draped your arm around his waist. He seemed to get comfortable as he came closer to you, giving you more room to drape your hands on him. You cracked a small smile as you pulled him even closer and mumbled a quite "goodnight baby" and went off to sleep.

The next morning

It was his day off he had said. Taehyung was quite happy to have a day off, any person would love to have a day off but then again, your man was a workaholic. He loved what he did and he enjoyed every minute of his work. Mainly because he loved performing and enjoyed doing all the pre recording and preparations for all of his performances.

He was quite a good dancer and put up an enormously good show with his bandmates for everyone who bought tickets. He had a huge smile by the end of his performance and gushed about it to you after he came home with you.

So it was indeed strange that he was happy and enjoying his day off but you didn't give it a second thought because you enjoyed seeing him happy and thinking about anything other than his work. It was a nice change.

You were making lunch and you heard footsteps behind you, rather slow ones. You figured he would jumpscare you so you turned around, ready to tease him until you saw his face. His eyes were bloodshot, his face puffier than usual and his cheeks and face stained red. He wasn't here to scare you, he had been crying? But when?

Worry instantly took control and you cupped his face, his face expressionless, trying to maintain a stable posture but failing miserably as tears started falling down his eyes and cheeks. He hugged you as tight as he could and sniffled loudly into the air.

You hugged him back and rubbed his back in a soothing manner so he could calm down and breathe a little. You had never seen him cry so loud in your life. Yeah you had seen him cry before but he didn't come off with this intense pain when he was crying, ever.

"Tae, please calm down and breathe, I'm here with you" you tried running a hand through his soft hair. That always calmed him down, even if it was just by a tad bit.

"I-i just-" he cried into your neck harder this time. You said nothing as you took him to the couch and sat him on your lap softly. You had to let him silently cry for a while as you cooed comforting words and rubbed his arms and back gently to calm him down.

Only after a whole 15 minutes of continuous sobs, gurgles and hiccups did he softly rub his eyes and nose and look at you with a look of pure sadness. "Our manager. They found out about us." He sniffled softly. "They even showed us a picture took by a fan, it's all over the internet and everybody is freaking out about it." His sniffles got louder between each sentences and his voice started cracking again.

You stared at him with a look that was a mixture of guilt and sadness. At one hand, this could affect his and all of his group mates' career.

Cancel culture has always been a bad practice and they were definitely going to get bashed, hated and cancelled for this kind of an act. He loved what he did and he didn't wanna loose his job, but on the other end of the spectrum, he loved you.

He adored you and he cared for you like no other. He loved you when you told him about your childhood stories and how you embarassed yourself unintentionally. He loved you when you pampered him when he was feeling low or tired. He loved you when you listened to him blabbering about the most random things. He loved you when you trusted him enough to share your feelings and insecurities.

In short, he couldn't just leave you like that. It would take him his actual soul to leave you. You were someone special to him and he wasn't ready to loose you just yet. He was in a very heavy conflict with his heart.

"I don't want to choose! I-i want to continue making music with my brothers and still be with you! I don't wanna loose a-anybody" he sobbed out his worries to you. "Then don't choose" you said calmly. You were definitely devastated that he was feeling all these things but one of you had to get your shit together so that you could actually speak about this.

"w-what" he sniffled out softly. "Don't make it a game of choices, tae. There is a possibility where you could have both."

"You don't have to make it a choice, if they are telling you to choose and you don't want to, you have to convince them. I know what I'm saying is easier said than done. It's a very hard thing to do, but if you want all of us then you have to take on some obstacles for it" you paused to hold back a few tears.

"Yes, you will get hate, yes some fans might even leave listening to your music, yes you'll get all the backlash to this, but I'm going to tell you one thing, your bandmates and me, all of us are here to face this with you, we'll all be getting a lot of hate for this. Please tae, you don't have to face this alone. It's up to you what you want to do. Just know that I'll be with you, irrespective of your decisions" you completed your speech with a somewhat reassuring smile on your face.

You circled your arms around his waist and pecked his cheek to comfort him more. "I'm sorry tae, it must be so hard for all of you" you softly murmured,are you trying to ignore breaking down? Yes. "I'm sorry too.. you'll be unnecessarily targeted" his sniffling had gone down a little bit by now.

"I can't deny that, it's gonna be hard for me, but hey we're all in the same situation right?" You felt him crack a smile at your neck, you laughed and pat his back. He pulled away smiling wider. You all knew you were in deep shit but in some way, you had to find a sense of comfort before the storm swept you away. This was your sense of comfort. Him.

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Woah that took me a long while. Anyways. I hope y'all enjoyed😌

Love,
-joonshi