My Soft Mafia

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Gulf's pov

I feel like shit

I am so tired and I just woke up

I looked at the clock and it's 10am I overslept.

Hell I don't care I'm the boss anyway

I looked to my left and I saw Mew in the bed sleeping. Then suddenly it hit me I thought yesterday was a dream. No actually it was a nightmare.

My nightmare brought back everything. I was actually still awake when Mew and Bright came here. I heard Mew humming to me and felt the kisses on my forehead. I feel loved but I also feel like shit.

Now everything was haunting me again. I remember having a call with my private investigator after I went home from the orphanage

. Actually after I took over the group I immediately hired a private investigator.

I wanted to find AA and bring him down. And my at that time my private investigator said he was laying low in the States. So I was fine with that him being away from my family.

We can actually take him down by now because I also have my men in the states watching him. But when the investigator called last night he told me that AA was now in Bangkok.

I felt terrified.

I was confident that I could protect my family. Since AA didn't know our capability. But after hearing that he's back my confidence faded in an instant.

I slept with the thought of fear. And thats what triggered my nightmares.

I started sobbing again again. Then I heard Mew woke up.

"Shh~ your okay now love, I'm here, We're all here okay? " Mew said and he embraced me and rubbed my back.

"Mew I'm sorry" I said sobbing.

"No baby don't say sorry it's not your fault okay?" Mew said.

"Did Win told you what happened?" I asked because maybe win told him. I really wouldn't mind as I trust Mew and Bright.

"No I didn't ask Win but maybe he told Bright. I'll just wait for you till your ready okay?" Mew said caressing my hair.

I trust him

I'll tell him now

But what I am supposed to say about us?

Like our families capability?

I'll tell him that another time.

"I'll tell you everything now Mew" I said and pulled away from the embrace. I saw he was shocked at first but then kept a straight face.

"it's okay baby I don't want to pressure you" Mew said looking in my eyes.

"No I don't feel pressured" I said. So I told him everything. From being kidnapped, torturing, witnessing a murder, the nightmares, my therapy sessions, the panicking attacks I also told him the real reason but didn't elaborate.

The last thing I said was about AA being back in Bangkok. While saying everything I would cry a little Mew would just comfort and kiss me in the forehead.

"I'm sorry that I couldn't comfort you at that time love. I wish I would've met you sooner. Then maybe. Just maybe that wouldn't happen to you. Maybe I could have protect you back then." Mew said while tears were in his eyes.

I feel so warm.

And its not just because Mew is hugging me right now. But someone is crying for me. As if they feel my pain as well.