The Reality Of Not Being Me

Chapter 17

I continue to walk with Xavier until we get to a beautiful river with a small waterfall flowing into it. He sits down and pats beside him. I walk over and sit down, taking in the wonderful view. I lean over and kiss his cheek and he smiles.

"Finn, I love you," I look at him and smile widely. I turn his face to me and lean closer to him. I kiss him deeply and mumble and "I love you" through our lips. I climb on top of him and sit on his lap. His hands grip my hair and as mine digs into his back.

"Jesus!" We hear behind us. We both turn quickly and see Alex. Alex is standing behind us with his hands over his eyes. A smile forms on Xavier's face when he sees him.

"Hey, um, can I look now?"

"Hey man, uh, yeah you can look," He chuckles as he stands and does the normal bro hug thing with Alex. Alex laughs and smiles at me.

"Yo new kid, I see that you already got with the school's hottie. Kai would always show us pictures of you and Xavier would always be drooling over Kai's phone," Alex says and Xavier punches him in the arm. Xavier comes back over to me and helps me up and over to Alex. I nod at him and slightly cower behind Xavier. Alex laughs and Xavier puts his arms around me.

I look down at myself and realize that I am wandering around in pajama pants and a hoodie. I tug on Xavier's shirt and motion to the house. I walk towards the house and see everyone sitting around and having fun. I walk to Xavier's room and shut and lock the door. I take off my hoodie and my shirt and grab my binder. As I put my binder on there is a knock at the door. 

"One sec!" I yell while throwing on a shirt. I unlock and open the door and Xavier is standing there. Before I could say anything he was in the room and had the door closed with me pressed against it. His lips hit mine roughly and his hands gripped my hair. I moan into his mouth and he makes a low growl noise. His hand leaves my hair and moves to the doorknob. I hear the click of the doorknob as Xavier's hands grip my waist. He lifts me and carries me over to the bed. He sets me down on it and I look at him. His eyes glow the bright neon blue that I love. 

He sits next to me and kisses me. Our kisses go from slow and fragile to rough and sloppy. It feels as if my whole body is on fire while we kiss. Xavier's hands travel along my body and I can't help but crave more. He moves his lips from mine to my neck. I feel him starting to bite my neck and I gasp loudly. He sucks and bites all along my neck until he seems satisfied. I suddenly get a rush of confidence and adrenaline and I flip us over so I am on top of him. I kiss him deeply as I lightly grind against him. I move my lips down his jawline and to his neck. He gasps as I bite down against his neck, I pull back and a smile grows on my face as I see a purplish red hickey against his neck. I lean farther back and the hickey is in plain sight where the only way he could cover it is with makeup or a scarf. While I admire my work there is a knock at the door and I turn while glaring at the door.

"Stupid fucking people," I mutter. Xavier laughs from underneath me and pulls me down to kiss me until a voice comes from the other side of the door.

"Xavier and Finn! I know you are in there, hell I can smell you guys from behind the door. Can I come in?" Xavier lets out a low growl and moves me off of him. He walks over to the door and unlocks it. Mia walks in and a smirk comes across her face. She sees the annoyed look upon my face and how I look. My hair is super messed up, I'm out of breath, I have hickeys all over my neck and my face is red. Xavier's eyes are still glowing blue and he stands there looking super annoyed.

"Ohhhh I get what is happening now. Damn, Xavier out here already trying to claim you." Xavier's face flushes a bright red and I sit there looking confused.

"What do you mean 'claim me'?" I ask, completely perplexed. "Um, uh. Well, I would have to bite your neck..." Xavier says. I rub the back of my neck and look at him very confused.

"Well technically haven't you already claimed me then?" I ask, oblivious to the situation.

"Well I would have to sink my canines into your neck and it makes you go through something that is painful, I just don't want you to be in pain," Xavier says. I now realize why his face turned red and my face follows. I blink a few times and run my hands through my hair. I smirk as I feel the other being starting to take control. I stand and my vision goes much more clear and sharper. I get up close to Xavier's ear and say,

"Do it." His face glows red and he turns and pushes Mia out the door.