Jai brooks. That is the name my mom gave me 18 years ago. I wish my mom didn't make me. No one likes me, except my mom. My dad died when I was 1 years and a half old by suicide. He was a victim if his own mind. My mom and I don't really talk about things. I don't see her that much. I usually sit in my room and sing or make music. That's the only thing that keeps me alive. I have to go to all those doctors an I hate it! I have to take the same tests again and again, and I'm sick of it! I just want to be myself and do the tings I want to do! But nobody understands me. Some people ask me how I stay this calm. But actually I can't stay calm, I just smile and behind my Fake Smile is a terrible world. And I just listen to music, to keep me "calm".
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And actually this is my whole life situation. Except my name isn't the name in this story, because I hate my name too. I wrote this fanfic because this is that thing I want to do, this is that life I want to live.
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I walk out of the office of my therapist and Iwait for my taxi to come and pick me up. It's raining so I'll probably get wet while I'm waiting. I finally see my taxi turning in to the street and he stops right in front of me. the taxi driver is my uncle, he got the same problems that i've got so he understands me. I'm looking trough the window when all of a sudden my uncle asked me why I liked the rain that much. that was a damn good question. I had to think about it. "because it reminds me that i'm still alive." I said.
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FanfictionA girl with suicidal toughts is touring with one of the most popular band in the world.
