Maxine & Ash

Chapter 2

       ' At least the food is good here' I think as I get in line for breakfast. I try to get in and out of the food line as fast as possible. Its easier that way, I dont have to make conversation with anyone. I walk to Ash with my pancakes, eggs, and bacon. I sit down across the table from him, and I already know the first thing he is going to say so I beat him to it. "I don't want to talk about it again, Ash. You know this."           "I know, but I just don't understand how we got ourselves into this" he repies. I don't know what to tell him, so I  tell him what I always tell him. "We got ourselves into this because we thought we needed to. For our families." I hesitate before I say the next thing on my mind. That would mean opening up, and letting someone into my personal thoughts. I say it anyway. "I think about that a lot. How I let my family down. It keeps me up at night sometimes. The thought of my family out there worse off then when I left them, and it's eating me alive." After I let all my inner thoughts out there is a scilence. Ash doesn't say anything for awhile. When he finally speaks up he says "Wow I'm sorry Max I should'nt have brought it up after you-"                                                                                                              "No, its fine. I kinda feel better actually. Y'know after letting all my feelings out that have been building up for the past, what? Ten months?" I ask. It's more of a rhetorical question than anything. I'm not eating my food anymore, so I decide to wrap up the conversation. "I think I'm going to go back to my room before testing time. I'll talk to you during rec?"                                                                                         "Uh yeah. See you then" Ash say. He seems dstracted as I walk away.                                                                   The walk back to my room is just as lonely as before.