behind the shadow part 1

forgetting the past

it was two days before i was being sent of to my fathers house over the summer.i thought to myself it was time to forget the past but all it did was haunt me.

i was scared of meeting my father,he may still hate me.i was just afraid of being broken again.as much as i was scared & angry of meeting him i was also excited & my mind was wondering.

it was the day.i hadn't packed my bags the night before in hope that he'd decline it as he did to grandma aswell,but he kept his promise.now thats a first"my mother had said as she was driving me up there.we slowly past a sign saying the name of the town & the population.as i was reading it a shiver ran down my spine 'GULO'it read.my mother stared straight forward as we passed as if she never relised.but the look in her eye didn't convince me one bit.

a bunch of guys (trying to look like a gang) were standing next to the sign looking directly at my face.i turned pretending i didn't see them but inside my heart was pounding,as if someone were punching me.i didn't feel safe here.the name,the guys it just didn't seem to feel normal.but theres me again with my scary mindless thoughts.

"oh look"mum said pointing her finger out my window.there was an old (well,looked old) house.mum pulled up."here we go !"she said trying to lift my spirit.she grabed my arm & walked straight to the door."why did you say,OH LOOK,as if it was special"i mumbled to mum being careful if dad heard it."i'm just trying to be nice"she gasped.a young teenage looking guy opened the door.it was perfect timing i had just began choking on my own breath.my mother gave me a 'don't be rude' look with her eyes wide open.

"you alright?"he asked poping his head out the door."no i'm aleft"i replyed after i had finished my choking.mum looked a me & smiled,"now dats my girl,still got your sence of humor"she smiled.i could hear foot steps heading towards the door.the teenager guy turned around & said "dad,she's here".

mum looked at the ground, proberly trying to remind him she hadn't forgot."steve"she trembled looking at the ground."look at you,still a little drama queen"he said leaning against the wooden cracked door.mum usally defends herself & comes back with a great comment but not this time."steve,lets just forget it"she said slowly looking up.

"sure,i'll forget it,but you won't".he walked back into the house holding a cold,wet beer."i love you honey"mum said kisses my forehead."stay safe,oh & if you need anything just call me"."love you to,mum"i mumbled.she walked back to the car waving goodbye."so,your um,steves son"i asked looking at my bags."yea,& your,nevermind"he smiled grabbing my bags."follow me.

i took a step onto the cracked infested wooden floor boards & suddenly a hole punched through them.i tryed not to notice.we both walked up the crookered stair,he was seeming to look strong but i could tell the bags were to heavy for him."need help?"i asked trying not to sound like it was obvious."no"he said loosing his breath.BOOM."so heres your room.". "its nice,i guess"i mumbled, i suddenly felt an urge to run back to mum & go home with her but i knew it wasn't possible. "yeaa, u'm & i'll just be next door if you need me, or anything." his smile was so smooth & his lips were blood red. i watched as he troded manly down the stairs skipping every second one. i sighed. how long was i going to have to stay here? i thought. i unpacked my clothes & settled, well at least tried, into my new raggidy old room. i earched through my jungle of clothes & suddenly felt something cold touch my finger tips. i had found my mini torch!. i grabbed at it & pulled its icy metal body out of my old 'use to be blue' jean pocket.I thought i might need to use it, just incase the light bulb blows. i had heard that was common here.i paced slowly & carefully down the old wooden stairs. trying not to make a big deal. i suddenly reached the bottom of the steps & walked carefully around the building.

I could feel the broken peices of infested wood sticking out, as i ran my shaking hand along the walls. i felt a sudden nudge in my guts. "OW"."oh sorry" he said ashamingly. "didn't uh..mean to hurt you" he hesistated. i gave him a look then smiled.

I didn't know what it was about him but he just seemed awfully strange. "So...do you want a tour, a mini tour" He smiled. I shook my head reluctantly. As much as i'd love spending time with him i had better things to do. "& life goes on" he spoke almost angrily. "did i upset you" i asked politely. 'No' he mouthed back. "How bout we go to dinner tonight, my gift to you". since i got here he had shown no interest in me but now he was so onto me, Made me kind of suspicoius, But with me you'd never know. He just seemed more than He'd Been Making out, Proberly just had some random sad back story like me. "Um..Alice, You okay?". I blinked a few times forgeting what i'd been thinking & just looked strangly into his eyes. It was like they were hiding something. It confused Me. "Do you wanna go to dinner?" He asked again, But he said it as if he wasn't sure i was paying attention. "You know, since you've just moved in. We can get to know eachover". I Could already tell that he mean't much more, But it didn't upset me, it'd be nice to get to spend time with him even if it wasn't excactly what i'd been thinking. "Uh, Sure" I smiled trying not to look dazed. "Great"

"lets call it a date".

Part 3 coming soon.