Starstruck: The Fallen Star

Chapter 2

        After Logie and I had agreed to a date, I just... I couldn't stop thinking about it. I mean, holy crap, Logan, who I thought was just so... Amazing, wonderful, handsome, perfect- WOW- wanted to go on a date... With ME. We still chatted and roleplayed as per usual, and talked with Virgil sometimes. I tended to send a lot of memes and pictures, it's just what I did. But one in particular ended with Logan teasing me about being a cat.

        I'm not a caaaaaaaat!!

        I think you're a rather cute cat. Logan responded, which caused blood to rush up into my face, and I giggled to myself.

         Ugh, PDA... Pat, tell your boyfriend to cut it out. Virgil's words only made my face grow warmer, but I ignored it, continuing the chat.

        He's not my boyfriend!

        Welllll...

        Well, what? Logan questioned.

        You two kiiiiinda are going out on a date... I mean... It was true, we were going on a date... And as much as I'd love to be in a relationship with Logan, I didn't want to force it on him, especially if he didn't want to be in a full-time relationship with me.

        We don't even know WHEN we're going on a date, Virgil. Logan politely reminded, and I held my breath as I typed.

        I... Wouldn't mind if Lo was my boyfriend... This was like confessing all over again, geez... I couldn't even hear my own thoughts as I waited to see what happened next, half-hoping nobody would notice, or care.

       Well... I wouldn't mind, either. My heart nearly leaped out of my chest, as I suppressed a huge smile.

        Really??

        Indeed.

        Geez, I don't think that could get much sweeter. I was giggling now, no longer trying to hold it back. I was so excited, Logan and I we're officially together! I wished that feeling could've just lasted forever...

        That night, I'd managed to sneak onto my phone. I tended to do so often, hiding my phone in the waistband of my sweatpants or in the pocket of the hoodies I often wore to bed. Sometimes I'd even just hide out in the bathroom until my family finally went to sleep.

      That night, Logie and I roleplayed some more, and we ended up chatting with our friends Janus and Remus, who were also dating.

         Have you ever thought of being in like... A poly relationship? Remus asked, rather suddenly.

         I mean... My ex was poly, so I've kinda thought about it before... Why do you ask? Ooh, are you poly?? It was true, my ex Remy was polyamorous, which started a few rumors around the friend group about threesomes, which was odd.

        I think maybe... Well, there's just one person in particular I kinda want to date too... Other than Janus, of course. Now I was curious, who did Remus like??

        Oooooo, who is it?? Tell us, please please pleaaaaase!

        Well... They're a part of every group chat I'm in. That cut it down to me, Logie and Remus' cousin. I really hoped it wasn't Logie, but, if it was and Lo feit the same way, I guess I wouldn't hold him back from the relationship.

        Hmmm... Lo?

       Uh... No. No offense. Even though he hasn't said it, I mentally ruled out myself. 

        Uhhhhhh... All I can think of is your cousin.

        EW, NO, IT'S NOT MY COUSIN

       Yee-haw! Logan commented, which made me giggle a little.

       It's you, dumbass. Me?? Right after Logie and I got together?? Remus was a great friend, but I just... I didn't like him like that. 

        Me? But... Lo and I just got together...

        Well, you two can still be together, but like... Us together, too. I didn't want to hurt Remus' feelings, but I didn't want to get sucked into another relationship, either.

        Can't I say anything about this?? Logan interjected, and silently, I was relieved. 

        What's your problem??

        Uh, the fact that Patton is MY boyfriend??

        What, so you're against poly relationships now??

        What?? No, I just don't feel comfortable dating someone who's also dating somebody else! I needed to say something before this went any further.

        Look, Re, I'm flattered, I really am, but... I just don't feel comfortable in a poly relationship, either.

        Fine, whatever. Remus went inactive, and I couldn't help but feel just the smallest twinge of guilt. Logan informed me that now he was gonna go to bed, but I just couldn't sleep. It was nearly three in the morning, but I was more awake than ever. I tried to distract myself, scrolling through Pinterest and YouTube, sending a few memes to Logan. That was, until he texted back.

         (I'm back... I couldn't sleep. I think I had a panic attack.) Now I was really worried, panic attacks are serious.

        (What?? What's wrong??)

        (I dunno, just... All that talk about polyamorous relationships, and the fact that Remus is so much closer to your age... Maybe... He's better for you than I am.) Now this, this I wasn't gonna let happen. I wasn't going to let Logan think someone was better than him for me, because there wasn't anybody better than him.

        (Logan, of course not! I want you, and only you, nobody else. Remus wouldn't be better for me, trust me. But don't tell him I said that... okay?)

        (Alright...) We stayed up for a little while longer, chatting. By the time I fell asleep, I hoped Lo was feeling better. I wanted to tell Logan just how much I cared about him, but... I wasn't absolutely sure either of us were ready for that yet.