𝙴𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 "𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚎"

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Warning- This chapter contains Self-harm
Emily Prentiss x Reader
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I looked down at my wrists

the fresh cuts still had some blood pooling from them.

I had stopped cutting when I got together with Emily.

she made me feel like I was an important part of this world.

but after she died there was no one there to tell me that anymore

no one there to help me through my nightmares

no one to kiss it till I get better.

I didn't mean to start cutting but after we had a really bad case where over 10 children were kidnaped and killed I couldn't take it anymore.

my phone started ringing from my bedside table.

𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚝  𝚗𝚘𝚝  𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗

I pick up the phone to JJ calling

" hello?" I say groggily

" Hey, sorry I know what you're going through right now, but we have a case."

little did she know what I was actually going through

" uh, yeah I'll be there in 30."

I put the phone down as I started to get ready.

I wrapped up my arm and put on a big long sleeve shirt to cover the bandage.

I put on the last pair of clean skinny jeans I had. I haven't had the energy or the willpower to do any laundry for months now.

As I pulled up to the Bau I noticed everyone else cars already there.

𝙶𝚛𝚎𝚊 𝚝 𝙸'𝚖 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎, 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝.

I run-up to the bullpen taking the stairs instead of the elevator to help lose the extra weight I think I've been putting on.

"Hey sorry I'm late," I say loudly as I run through the glass doors.

" ok, we will debrief the case over the plane ride, wheels up in 20." Hotch gives out the order as we all get into our vehicles to go to the strip.

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the plane ride was pretty quiet except for the hushed tones of spencer playing chess by himself and Morgan listening to music. somewhere down the plane, JJ is on the phone talking to her son.

I sit on the couch, alone, reading a new book I got yesterday. I tend to be able to read one book a day, or, during a case, I can read one book per case.

I got about halfway through when part of the couch leans down, signaling me that someone had just sat down next to me.

" Hey, whatcha reading?" spencer asks, genuinely curious. After Emily left, I got a lot closer to spencer. this wasn't in a romantic way at all. I really just liked him as a best friend and someone Who I could go to for anything.

" oh, I just got this new book called, and the she was gone , it's actually really good." I put the book down on the table next to me and turn so that I'm facing spencer.

" do you have any new books you've read over this plane ride?" I giggle knowing he now could finish a whole harry potter book in under 30 minutes. ( I timed him)
" no, I've just been playing Chess and talking with my mother."

" oh, how is she doing?"

"she's having a good day today actually, she remembered what we talked about yesterday and she even remembered some memories from my childhood."

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