Growing up- Pain or Pleasure?

CHAPTER 1-The begining

I stare into the mirror and look at myself from head to toe, "Why cant I be more taller?, Why cant i be like those plastic's at school?". Thougts burried in my mind from so long starts to come up repeatedly, its starting to hurt my head,why should i keep thinking about all of this?, why cant school get over already?, I want to start things over!. "Jen, honey come downstairs for breakfast!. You are going to be late for school" says Ellen, she's my stepmom.I dont even know why dad decided to bring that women to our house!, hearing her voice really irritates me!, why cant she just DIE already!?.My conversation with dad pops in my head, he's words echo "Jen, you should promise me to try to get along with your new mother!, you're mom's never coming back okay?,you must learn to move on". I love my dad and i dont want to do anything that would hurt his feelings!. Its okay its just a few days , and then im out for college.

I go downstairs, as I enter  i can see Ellen standing beside the kitchen's island puttng breakfast on the table. i go and sit on the chair next to her, she looks quiet happy ."I'm having a fashion show meeting this evening, and I was thinking maybe you can come with me after school.I could really use your help" she says. I love fashion designing, but I dont want to spend a single second with her!, and I specially dont want her to get close to me through things I love!. I try to make up a lie "I'm sorry i've got work to do....." ,"Oh i understand" she says looking at me. I dont really want to lie to her , but i dont want to do anything with her either!. I feel bad though and I think she understood that I was lying, you know what i should try to make things less awkward. "mmm. omelette dads favourite